A LOVE THAT STARTED IN MY BOSS' OFFICE

CHAPTER 8.5

Yuseff's POV

After the commotion, I saw Fere in a different form. Well I never really give a damn with anyone after that haiiii.

I saw her loving and weak side. Ang totoo, nakonsensya talaga ako sa mga sinabi ni Patch. I never knew this lady who smiles and jokes around is damn damaged. Hindi ko alam na may mga pinagdadaanan din pala sya and it's way heavier than mine.

After Lola knew what happened, she got angry with me. She even told me she'll remove Fere as my secretary and ofcourse, hindi ako pumayag. Bakit ako papayag? She's been the most efficient secretary ever.

I asked an apology, I expect some blames from her but what I hear is her sorry. I didn't expect this from her. This bitchy witch is having a different facade and interior.

I knew Lola set dinner for us, she wants us to be okay. And I thanked her for that. I think we are okay now.

I even asked her on The Crib. This should be Patchie's event but she flew somewhere and I need to take over. After I asked her if she wants to go with me, I saw twinkle in her eyes.

Am I drunk over a four season juice? I just saw the most beautiful lady I ever met. I laughed on the thought. That I would never tell her. It'll be my downfall.

On our way to The Crib, we're talking. I don't know why but talking to her makes ny heart a little lighter.

"So ano kaya mo inumin?"

"I can double any drink that Patchie drinks."

"Really?" Patchie had a very good alcohol toleracy.

"Yup!"

"Let's see." Sabi ko as I parked the car.

As we enter the place, I meet and greet some people I know. Sinabihan ko na lang si Fere to order anything and put it on my tab. I made sure everything's okay before I head to the bar counter where Fere is.

I saw guys getting near Fere. She's not on her usual party attire pero nilalapitan pa rin sya. What more pa kung!!! Arggh, I should erase the thought.

"Parang andami mo na agad nainom ah"

"Wala pa nga ako nailalagay sa tab mo"

"Eh ano yan?" tanong ko sa nakahilerang baso

"Ah kapalit lang nyan ay pangalan ko. hahaha"

" Double Black Label " I asked the barista

Loud noise of the bar is sorrounding us yet, silence is covering us both.

"Alam mo Seff, bars have been always my escape."

Napatingin ako sa kanya as she started recalling days when she was happy.

"During our college days, we jump to bars after bars for different reasons. Ako, I do it because Papa's so busy and I want attention. haha."

"Shit. Tinamaan ako ng middle child syndrome. I am the second at wala akong atensyong nakukuha. Sa pamilya namin, I am the ordinary, regular, hindi espesyal. I was never an achiever."

"Bars brings out the bitchy witch in me. I party a lot, I got boyfriends everywhere. Why? Because I want attention."

"Now, I hate it. Because attention requires responsilbilities that I am not used to."

I wondered what's going on her pretty head. While talking, she wasn't crying. She was smiling but clearly, her eyes are in deep pain.

I did not speak. I let her drink anything she wanted to. Alam ko marami na syang nainom at hinayaan ko lang sya. I know she needs it. Patricia told me she have not had any decent mourning. Chaos came to her life one after another. I let her have her peace.

"Mukhang mamumulubi ako sa dami ng kaya mong inumin ah?"

She smiled and said " Talaga ba? Andami dami mong pera eh. Pero sabagay, kami nga, isang barko lang eh, nawala nang lahat lahat."

"Namiss ko tong bar, namiss ko magingay! Namiss ko magwala. Namimiss ko yung feeling na ako yung bida, ako yung pinakamasaya. I miss me being one with the world. I miss the happy contented me. I miss me."

Nakita ko namang tumulo na ang luha nya. Andito na kami sa VIP room at kaming dalawa lang. Ano ba ang dapat kong maramdaman sa babaeng umiiyak.

"Namiss ko maging ako pero sino ba ang may kasalanan diba? Sino ba ang dapat kong sisihin?!!"

I think the spirit of alcohol overcome her being already.

"Sino ba ang dapat kong sisihin Yuseff? Put@$&n@! Sino ba ang may kasalanan? Mayaman kami eh! Kagaya mo! Pero hirap na hirap na ako. Gusto kong may masisi. Si Papa ba? Si Papa na nagpakamatay sa kulungan dahil sa kahihiyan? Si Lola ba? Si Lola na inatake sa puso dahil sa mga nangyayari?? Si Mama ba na tinakasan ng katinuan? O sa put@$!n@ kong kuya na bigla na lang naglaho? Kanino ko ba dapat isisi ha Yuseff??"

"Isa lang namang barko ang lumubog. 100 pa ang natira, pero bakit? Bakit nawala lahat? Magaling ka naman sir! Sagutin mo naman kung bakit? Kung paano nangyari na napalubog ng isang barko ang 100 fleet namin!!"

"Oo, di ako ganoong kagaling pero put@$!n@ lang talaga! Alam kong may mali!!"

"Kasalanan ko ata. Ako ang dapat sisihin dahil wala akong alam."

And she began to weep. I don't know how long she cried on my shoulders pero hinayaan ko lang siya. I didn't know what she been through, but I know her pain is beyond bearable. And again, I am afraid I'm letting my guards down as I pull her close to me for a hug.

By what she said, something suspicious happened to their shipping lines. I am just soo busy now, but someday, I'll lend a hand to know what really happened to their business.