Morthon University (Book II) : The Undying Ending

Chapter 60

Chapter 60

*Cham's POV*

"Thank you Shadow."

"For what ?"

"For pretending just to make me happy."

"Pretending ?"

"Pretending that you can't sing very well just to make me smile even if we both know that you can, I once heard you right ? And pretending that ... you're not hurting, even if you are."

Silence.

"I can pretend all the things hell up, just for you Cham. There's some advantages in pretending, just to inform you." he smiled sweetly.

"Like what ?"

"Just like ... I'm pretending to feel that .. you'll love me too."

Long Silence.

Pauwi na kami sa Morthon, I can't imagine that I slept with Shadow in the beach where I made my vows to Viahm. Don't get me wrong here, sa buhangin lang naman kami nakatulog. Somehow nakawala din ng sakit na nararamdaman ko. I felt guilty today -- pakiramdam ko ay ginagamit ko lang si Shadow para maging sandalan ko, pero hindi ko naman sinabi sa kanya na gawin niya yun but he still insisting it. Nung natutulog si Shadow kanina, nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makita ang cellphone niya, nakakalat kase sa buhanginan kung saan kami nakatulog. At doon nakita ko ang mga picture ko -- sa race, sa school, sa room, sa campsite, sa dorm. Halos lahat ata except cr of course, puro stolen pictures ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit meron akong mga picture sa cellphone niya, tingin ko ito yung tinitignan niya ng mahuli ko siyang kumakanta dati sa dorm nila, not only that may mga messages pa sa draft box niya, na parang ginawa niyang diary -- just like ..

"I can't believe napapayag ko si Cham makipagdate sakin, as in WOW ! I'm so excited and I don't know what to wear, can I just wear my boxer on ? I think she will find me hot that way haha."

"I ruined everything, hindi ko alam na may date sila ni Viahm and I felt so guilty at all. Dapat pala inalam ko muna kung may date siya bago ako umeksena --- now, what to do ?"

"Today I lose my only daughter Shame, oh -- not as in literal daughter by the way, Shame is my most favorite racing car and I named it after my name and CHAM. Haha sweet right ? But I lose her tonight, but it's okay, I lose her just to save her mom Cham, I can afford to lose everything -- wag lang si Cham."

"I see her smiled when Viahm gives her a flower, kaya naman inutusan ko si Fox para bumili ng isang bouquet na bulaklak kase gusto kong makitang ngumiti din siya sa akin ng ganun, but then it turned the other way around -- simangot ang nakita ko sa kanya. But it's alright, I see her beautiful that way. Siguro mas gusto niya lang talaga ang konting bulaklak kesa sa madami. Ang tanga ko, dapat pala isa lang ang ipinabili ko. T.T"

"I dedicated a song to her at the cafe, damang dama ko ang kanta na yun para sa kanya pero tingin ko hindi niya yun napansin, from the very first verse of the song until the last --- she only looked at Viahm. Just only for Viahm and for the very first time -- I want to yell out to the world "DAMN IT HURTS ! IT REALLY HURTS" Now I know what "hurts" really feels like."

"I got a chance now to hugged the most beautiful woman in my world -- CHAM -- thanks to Viahm, kahit na hiram na sandali lang, atleast naramdaman ko kahit papano' naging sakin si Cham ^__^."

"Naitakas ko si Cham, woah it feels like nagtanan kami or something haha sana ganun na nga, for the second time around, nakantahan ko siya at finally nakinig na siya pero nakatulugan naman niya, pero okay lang because tonight, I think I'm going to have a sleep over in this white beach sand together with Cham, geez it's my most happiest moment on the planet earth so far kahit na alam kong dito niya sinagot si Viahm, it's okay to be her second rate. Sana hindi na matapos ang gabing to' at kung matapos man, I cherished every moment of this day and night until the moment that I die."