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Chapter 2

"Everything happens for a reason."

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One week went by very slowly without Jack. I couldn't eat well or sleep or do anything normal in my life without him. I find myself missing his green eyes, his laugh and the way he mocked me for being too short for him. I feel like I'm returning back to this empty space I once was in and it suck that there's nothing I can do to stop me. And I wonder, will anyone be willing to help me get out of this misery? Maybe he'll come back again and tell me how much he's sorry and that he didn't mean to hurt me and I would believe him just so that everything can be okay again.

"We're having a sleepover tonight! No excuses." Candice's voice interrupted my sad thoughts as she was sitting next to me with the biggest smile on her face, her blond hair was bouncing as she was referring to the fact that I'm the one who always makes excuses. I looked back at Grace as she was agreeing with Candice. I've always enjoyed Candice and Grace's surprise visits, but I have a feeling that this one will be different.

"Not even because of Jack." She teased, nudging me with her elbow and my heart broke even more. I looked at her blankly, bitting my lip. Of course she noticed and her smile faded slowly, raising her brows.

"What? What's wrong?" As I was fighting the tears that were trying to get out, I smiled sarcastically. Grace and Candice's eyes were on me now, I could feel them gazing and exchanging looks.

"Um, it's- nothing." I stuttered. I just really wasn't in the mood for talking about it, but since they noticed they won't shut up until I spill it out.

"Spill it!" They said at the same time.

"Jake and I broke up." With a sigh leaving my lips at the end, I looked down admiring my folded hands that were resting on my lab.

"Yeah right," I heard Grace snorting as Candice glared at her and then looked back at me.

"What she meant to say was that you both break-up a lot," She tried to explain for Grace.

"Yeah, you'll probably get back in about two days." Grace said, agreeing with Candice. And I wasn't sure whether she said it to make me feel better or saying it sarcastically just because we always do this, leave each other and say hurtful things like we don't want this shit anymore but we always get back together. But I don't know why this time I don't feel like we're gonna get back together. I want to, I don't want to be in a miserable life without him...with him I'm even more miserable, but happily miserable.I can't explain it, but a guaranteed small happiness is better than not knowing whether you'll achieve happiness at all.

"No, I think this time for real." I replied back, trying to assure them that it's over and somehow making sure I let it sink in, too.

"What happened this time?" Candice asked in concern.

"We just argued again and he treated me like the dirt he walks on then, I don't know, I've had enough of his shit." I tried to look calm and collected.

"So you broke it off with him? Just like that?" Grace asked.

"Yeah and I had every right to." I shrugged.

"I'm so glad it ended, Jade, It wasn't healthy." Candice said, taking her hand in mine in sympathy. I know Candice and I know what goes in her mind, she never liked him and every time we fight, she always says things like 'it wasn't healthy' and 'you should have done it a long time ago' I don't hate her for that, I know that all she wanted was to see me happy and as long as she knows that being with him will make me sad then she will never like the idea of him and me going back together.