I chased my doleful insecurities into the night,
Along the broken street and down the steps,
Past the nettles that smell of rain and sadness,
Past the bench where kids share their weed,
Past the garages where sunken-eyed junkies
Force the locks to steal rusted tools to eBay,
Past the cheap grill van which sells burgers
And bacteria in a bun, fries on the side,
Into the beer-soaked pit that passed for
A concert hall, where short, fat men danced
To a chameleon band ripping up the
Frontiers of sonic decency and leered at
Sweat-drenched girls in their heels and
Leggings spilling out of halter-necks and
Dipped like sheep in Chanel to kill the flies,
Wishing they could fuck them in the toilets
As they do a line or three, wasted and
Happy, high on the dream-memories of
Years gone by, and fucking made up to have
Survived another week, to have beaten
The suicide temptations one more time,
Sticking it to the man and the devil.
I drank Newcastle Brown Ale and laughed,
Howling along to Cars and Rebel Yell,
Wishing She Sells Sanctuary and not
The Sound of Silence, asking my fuck-wit
Mate not to sell his soul and support the
Friendly fascists for a piece of the action,
Goading him to frack what's left of his
Christian conscience and extract the
Spunk to tell them to get screwed, not limp
Meekly after his dead-eyed crowd, shrugging
Off responsibility like his decision is
Someone else's foregone conclusion,
Agency surrendered to inevitability,
My anger at him really anger at me,
The king of transference, unable to
Switch off the pocket rocket fantasies
Ripping up my anchors and setting me
Adrift, cutting through my carefully
Designed numbness and making me
Think just what if, what fucking if, and
Making the dreams that died burn again
Like pinprick starlight on the black sky.
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Fragments And Reflections
PoeziePoems looking at everything and anything not in my other collections. Here you'll find life and time, wild oceans and lonely coast paths, busy streets and empty hotel rooms, wild concerts and late night writing. All just fragments and reflections, l...