Wolf At Heart

Chapter #37

*play song when told*

Its been almost a week. The funeral is in three days. I haven't gone to school, i've been off of social media. And im pretty sure i have over 100 texts from Emily and Leona. I miss him. No doubt about that. I haven't moved in forever. The only thing i get up to do is shower, brush my teeth, and go to the bathroom. Other then that...i have been locked away. From everyone. The only time i saw my mom was when she would leave dinner at my door. My room was my den, my cave, a place i used to isolate myself. I didnt want comfort..i didnt want company. I want him! But thats never gonna happen I went into the bathroom with some hair die. My mom rushed to the door. "Jessica. Jessica sweetheart...what are you doing?!" I heard her say through the door. I didn't answer. I haven't spoke in a week....my mouth has been sealed with pain, guilt, grief, suffering. Anything you could think of. I wasn't gonna die all my hair, just the tips. An hour passed. I got out of the bathroom. "Jessica...your..your hair!" My mom gasped. "Your tips..their...their...blue?!" She touched my hair. "In memory of him....." I managed to say. I went into my room. My phone has been sitting untouched for a week. I grabed it and blew the dust off. I made a group chat with Leona and Emily. 'Hey...' I typed. But i didnt have the courage to press send...My thumb felt like it was frozen in place. Finally...i sent it. Right away i got replies. 'Dude...im so sorry...' Leona said. 'Everything will be ok...' Emily replied. 'I need you guys to...to call the pack...meet a moon high." I stated. 'Ok..no problem Jessica!" Leona said. She left the group. 'Emily...can...can you get the strongest wolves on guard please?" I asked. "Of course!" She left the group. I put my phone down. I got up and changed. I put on a back shirt, black leggings, back convers, and one of Kevin's hoodies. I walked out my room. "Im..gonna go get some air...ok mom?" I asked in a whisper. My voice couldn't go much higher then that. "Oh..of course dear..take as long as you need. I will leave dinner on the countrr for you." She hugged me. I walked out. I went to the park, and i sat on the bench. I started to sing. *play song*
Always
You will be part of me..
and i will forever feel your strength
when i need it most
you're gone now
gone but not forgotten
i cant say to your face
but i know you hear
i'll see you again
you never really left
i feel you walk beside me
i know I'll see you again
when im lost
im missing you like crazy
I'll tell my self im soooo blessed
to have had you in my life
my life...
I'll see you again
you never really left
i feel you walk beside me
i know I'll see you again
When i had the time to tell you
never thought I'd live to see the day
when the words i should have said would come to haunt me
in my darkest hour i tell myself
I'll see you again
I'll see you again (I'll see you again)
you never really left
i feel you walk beside me
i know I'll see you again
somday I'll see you again
I'll see you again
you never really left
i feel you walk besides me
i know I'll see you again
i will see you again
oh I'll see you again
i miss you like crazy
you're gone but not forgotten
I'll never forget you
someday I'll see you again
i feel you walk bedside me
never leave you
yeah
gone but not forgotten
i feel you by my side
no this is not goodbye
no
yeah
no this is not goodbye
no this is not goodbye
(i feel you walk beside me)
no this is not goodbye
I sat there and cried. Kevin was gone...and i will never get him back! Its all my fault!! He was coming to see me! Its my fault! ALL MY FAULT!!!

Hey guys...sad chapter i know.,.these next few chapters are gonna be sad...but dont worry..it will get better soon i promise:) Also just to let you guys know. In the next few chapters there are gonna be songs, and maybe some pictures too. Anyways hope you guys enjoyed...byeeee <3