Obsession

Ch 39 - S.O.S.

Once the tour got started in Asia, seeing new videos and pictures of Ashton helped me to miss him a tiny bit less. Though, he was always just a phone call away. As much as I looked forward to hearing about his day, it was still a little excessive at times. I missed him like crazy, but when you can't stay off the phone long enough to work productively, it becomes a problem. But I dealt with it.

The band had a break near the end of March, and Ashton planned out a trip for me to visit him in LA one weekend. He'd already picked out flights and everything before he presented the plan to me. He pointed out that he wouldn't have another break until the end of April, and I really couldn't wait another month to see him again. It was short notice to ask off at work, but Kassie was okay with it. I only had to take off on a Friday, so it wasn't that big of a deal. And of course my mom didn't mind keeping the kids. She couldn't be happier that I'd met someone successful and who made me happy.

I felt so guilty going without Traci. I knew she was happy for me, but it just didn't feel right. I wished all the time that Calum would come to the realization that he wanted to be with her. But unfortunately, there was nothing I could do about it. And that sucked, because I'd do anything for my friend.

My visit was just as one would expect. We basically didn't leave his apartment. But we had plenty of company. He and Calum had gotten the apartment just after New Year's. So I knew it was inevitable that I'd see Natalie at some point, and it turned out that she was actually there with Calum when I first arrived. Talk about awkward, for me anyway. I'm sure she had no idea that Calum had fucked the shit out of my best friend on a few occasions. She seemed nice enough, though. I had no reason to dislike her.

But the pairing was so odd to me. She was the total opposite of Calum: hyper, perky, loud, and very much a people pleaser. Calum, on the other hand, was always calm. I never heard him raise his voice, even in excitement. And he preferred staying in the background. Despite their contrasting personalities, I noticed that they seemed to get along just fine. But there was no affection at all. They honestly seemed more like friends. The whole situation was just so strange.

I'm not sure what I expected, that all the band members hung out all the time while not working, or what. But I never laid eyes on Luke or Michael. Ashton said that Luke had never even been to his apartment, probably because he was always up Allegra's ass when he was home. His words, not mine. I'll just say that Allegra wasn't Ashton's favorite person in the world.

Luke and Michael also shared a place, but Michael never stayed there according to Ashton. He'd recently started dating a girl named Chrissie, and pretty much lived with her. I already knew this because I'd heard it through the Twitter grapevine. Oh, that and she was always wearing Michael's shirts in her Snapchats. I was glad he'd found someone he enjoyed being with. But I wished it was someone who didn't constantly try to stir shit up, just like Allegra did. Like me, Chrissie was older. Older than me, even, at 32. But the maturity level wasn't quite up to par with the age. I knew Michael could do so much better. But it was none of my business. And I didn't dare mention anything about it to Ashton, because Lord knows I didn't want to stir up the jealousy monster again.

As I said, we stayed inside the whole weekend. It sounds boring, but we were content just being together doing normal boring couple stuff like watching movies and stuffing our faces with the copious amount of food that we had delivered. It was just enough to put a little spring back into my step for a few more weeks.

The morning of my birthday, April 28th, I woke up to a crazy amount of texts. But the one that caught my eye wasn't from Ashton. It was from Michael.

From Mikey: i hear it's your birthday. so happy birthday! and since it's your bday, i'm guessing ashton is MIA bc he's with you?