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How to save a life
Dear Niall, May 4 2013
I am left alone in this dark pitch world with no one. I have lost a friend a friend that was not just a friend but a brother and really close best friend. He was a best friend and brother to me. I loved everything about him. His smile that light up a room always or anywhere. His blond short hair. His laugh and the way he laughs. His adventoures side and funny side. I loved everything about that boy. Again he was not just my friend he was a brother to me. He was like a brother that I have known my whole life. His name is Niall Horan. Yes Niall Horan. Niall was too young to die of cancer. It was not his fault. He fought everyday but cancer kept winning. Everyday Niall fought for his life. Sometimes he just wants to give up and let it win but I didn't let him. He deserved a life. He was my Niall my Niall Horan but now he is gone and I have nothing left. He left me nothing. I miss his laugh, his smile, and his words of comfort when I am always down. I miss his touch on my skin and best of all his love for food. Why did he have to go? Why couldn't it have been me? Why did he let cancer win? Why Niall if you can hear me why couldn't you have fought back? I am disappointed in you? I have nothing of Niall's. Nothing except a necklace with a heart shape locket and a picture of both of us on the first day of 2nd grade. That was the only thing I had. He got me that for Valentine's Day. I remembered his smile and the twinkle in his eyes when he handed me the box with the locket in it. I will always remember that day. The memories of Niall will never erase from my mind. He will be in my heart always and forever. Niall if your reading this right now all I want to say is I love you very much. You were the bestest friend and brother any girl could ever have. You were my best friend. I miss you so much. I really do. I hope you’re happy in Heaven. Please watch over me. I will watch over you the same way. I have to go I will write more tomorrow
Dear Niall, May 5 2013
My life sucks without you. I need you here with me. I still don't understand why you left me alone. It's as if you have forgotten me already. Why Niall? I still don't understand! Some nights I have nightmares. Terrible nightmares Niall! I scream and shout but you don't hear my screams and shouts. I end up waking the family and they will come rushing into my room at the middle of the night. Mom will wake me up and I will end up crying into her arms. Janie, Melissa, Josh, mom and dad will tell me it's alright. But it's not alright because you left me torn and broken. My heart is filled with sorrow and no hope. Cancer got the best of you! Why COULDN'T YOU FIGHT YOU WHORE!!!!!!!? WHY!? I am sorry I am just... just... I don't know anymore. I wake up every day thinking it's my fault that you left. Every morning I will look into the mirror and see my reflection. I will look into my eyes and start hating myself. I will call myself a b**ch and how foolish. Sometimes I will even cut myself. CUT MYSELF! That's how depress I am for you. I will continue this until you come back. But you are never coming back. You gone forever. I hope you can see this Niall! My family is worry about me. I haven't eaten for weeks (I try starving myself to death). I don't seem to be on earth anymore. I eyes have lost its color; they are now dark gray and dull. I don't talk to any of my friends, my family or relatives. My grades in school have gone down. My parents and everyone are worrying sick about me. My mom always watches me. She sees my weight loss and how depress I am every day. She tries getting me some help but I refuse. I don't need anyone. This is what I want. This is how much I want you back Niall! Can you hear me?! Are you there Niall?!!!!! I guess you don't care about me anymore. You left me once more. The boys, the best friends in the world you left are worry about me. I don't even know why everyone is worry. I am perfectly fine!!!! Louis, well he use to laugh and be sassy but now he is.... I don't even know. He watches me closely I see him watching me. Harry is trying to cheer me up. He says he misses my dimple cheeky smile. A smile that always made him feel happy. Liam and Zayn I don't even know. I love this way. I just want to die because I know no one will even care. Why should they care!? No one likes me! They hate me now! You the reason you made me this way! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU MORE THEN ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dear Niall, May 6, 2013
Dear Niall, May 7, 2013
Dear Niall, June 1,2013
I have got good news and bad news. What do you want to hear first? Okay then the bad news. Okay so the bad news is I have lost alot of weight. I am now just skin and bones it's really scary but I like it. I am in the hospital while writing these letters. My hands shake everytime I write. Enough about that the good news is: school is almost over. Summer vacation time. Only 2o something more days until schook yesssss!!!!!!!! I can't wait to chill and hang out with friends and stuff. Summer will be so awesome with you.... oh yeah you are not here. * sigh* Niall oh Niall how much I miss you so. I think you want to know more about me being in the hosipital. Well I have lost so so so much weight that I collapsed in bed on the wednesday of May 8. I blacked out completly. Mom found me on the floor of my room and rushed to to the hospital so yeah that why I didn't write to you on the 6,7,8 and so on so forth. You don't have to worry though I am fine. I really am. I um have to go.
Dear Niall June 20, 2013
Okay look I am really sorry for not writing to you. I was in the hosiptal trying to regain my full health. I went through a lot that I don't think you will like to know. Anyway guess what?! I AM HEALTHY AGAIN!!!!!!!!! I am not skinny anymore, I am back to the person I use to be before the depression started. I am not sda anymore. My usual Hazel eyes are back to it's full color and happiness. I am smiling more then ever. Everyone is happy for me. When I first stepped out of that room everyone started to tear up. Melissa and Josh hugged me so tight that I couldn't breath at all. Mom and dad cried and cried. The boys were there too. When they saw me they.... oh ogd I can't I am sorry. I am just mad at myself about this. i am mad about doing this to myself. I know that you are not the blame for this and me either. I just... Niall I miss you way to much and way to much. I just can't stand the idea that you are not here next to me. These are the boys words when I told them that I miss you:
Harry: Y-N Niall knows that you love him. He knows that you miss him. You guys will always be the bestest of friends wether or not he is here or not. He will always be in our hearts.
Liam: Y-N listen to me, I don't want you to ever do this to yourself ever again. Niall will be unhappy about this. What you went through right here it's too terrible to imagine. You didn't have to go through this for Niall. Niall did this because he love you. He loved you for who you were not somebody else. I am sure right now Niall is watching us and smiling. He is your best friend and you should always know that
Louis: * sniffles* Y-N Niall was very special to us and you. When you come over and he sees you he will light up and smile the biggest smile. You two will always be there for one another. Remember that time you and him fought about him being a jerk and you guys went a day without talking. You knew right there and there that he was your best friend and that you will forgive him no matter what kind of dumb fights you guys have. I swear you guys were closet friends of all
Zayn: I um I-I...... well all I want to say is I am happy your back to health again. I was so worry sick about you. Just like Liam said don't you ever do that again. Everyone loves you even we love you and best of all... Niall l-loves y-you
I felt my eyes tear up as they finished. I was
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