Being Rachel Berry

Facing My Fears part 2

Chapter 12
Rachels pov :
I stood there for a moment and then said , "See you in glee club? " I asked him. "Yeah." He said and we went our separate ways. "How am I suppose to tell him ?" I asked Ms.Pilsbury. "Rachel just be honest with him he'll understand. " She told me. "I can't, I mean I like him and I don't want him to think I'm a freak. " I said. "He won't. Rachel what you went through is awful but if Finn really cares about you then he'll stay your friend. True friends will stand by you no matter what . Its just a matter of you taking the chance and facing your fears. " She said. I nodded and said , "I have to go." I told her and left. I walked into glee and went up to Mr.Shue , "Hey can I sing something today?" I asked him. " Of course," he said he then turned to everyone else and said , "Okay guy Rachel has something she wants to sing so Rachel take it away ." He told me. I smiled and nodded to the band to start :
(Rachel)
(Looks at Finn )
Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

(End of song )
Later I was in the auditorium at the edge of the stage by myself when Finn sat down next to me. "You did a really beautiful job today with your song ." He told me. I smiled and said, "Do you believe in God Finn?" I asked him. "Yeah do you? " He asked me. "Honestly, no but I used too." I told him. "Why's that ?" He asked me. "Because so many bad things in this world happen to good people. Abuse, death, sickness , rape. " I said. "What are you talking about? " He asked me confused. I took a deep breath and said, "Finn I lied to you when I told you I had a boyfriend. The truth is I um ....." I struggled to tell him amd finally I just said , "I was raped before I moved here. " His filled with shock and then suddenly he pulled me into a hug and first time in awhile I felt safe.