Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 151 Use Me

*James*

The morning kicked off with a bang. That bang being Julia Moretti. I don't know what happened between yesterday and today, but I have a feeling my gut instincts were right about Julia and Nate hooking up. I have yet to ask her. Now is not the time.

Julia came out of her bedroom this morning in full-blown hysterics. The second Paul saw her, he headed back into the room where Nate was to confront him on why she was crying.

"Babe, what happened??" I ask, gingerly putting my hot cup of coffee down that Paul had helped me with. It looks like Julia had a rough night. She has dark circles under her eyes, telling me she either didn't sleep or had interrupted sleep due to one of her nightmares. They have yet to lessen in frequency.

"I'm just sick of this. I didn't ask for any of this! I try to be a good person, you know?" She begins pacing frantically while fidgeting with her hands. I quickly get up from my chair and walk over to her to console her. I wrap my arms around her and try to calm her down.

"You ARE a good person, sweetie. What happened?"

"I'm pathetic, that's what." She stands with her hands down at her sides, not reciprocating my embrace, clearly caught up in whatever happened in the other room.

"Julia, talk to me."

"The entire situation surrounding Mila Giovanni is overwhelming. The comments people post under her Instagram photos... how genuine Nate's smile always is when they pose for photos. He was so happy to be with her. I know I can't compare to that supermodel. And I know I'm not even in a relationship with Nate anymore, but why do people have to be so cruel? Reminding me of how I'm not gorgeous like her and how I'm an anchor or"

"Julia -" I lower my head more and hold her tighter. "You can't pay attention to that shit. People talk. Especially young fans who are obsessed with Hollan when they don't even know him or the mess he is. They only see what the media shows them. The media will show the worst of you and the best of Nate and Mila because they are celebrities. They bring in the money, they give these reporters something to talk about, pay the bills. That's all. And fans are just that- Fans. They don't know the real messy shit that happens behind closed doors. How Nate hurt you doing the things he did, how he started drinking because of Mila.  You can't let that shit get to you. It's fake. Fake comments on fake people they know nothing about."

Nothing I say is going to make Julia feel better about this situation. This is just another very clear reminder people like me and her don't belong in the celebrity world. Julia has never been media trained. She hasn't acquired the thick skin needed to take everything with a grain of salt. She's sensitive, and I don't want to lose that. It's part of who she is. It's what makes Julia so compassionate and giving and caring. But the outside world doesn't see that. They only see what the paparazzi fills their heads with. If they only knew the REAL Julia. The one who doesn't talk bad about anyone! Julia chooses to find the good in everyone, regardless of their actions. If they strip her of that quality and force her to become hardened, she will lose her authenticity and become like the rest of em.

This shit with Mila and Nate - it's the type of jealous shit that will break Julia down to pieces. She thinks very little of herself as it is. I wish I could open her eyes to realize what an amazing person she is. How big her heart is and how we could all learn a few lessons from Julia - a person who brings out the best in others, highlights the positive qualities in others -

 Even her monsters.

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*Trisha*