Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 6 Agendas

*Trisha*

"Ok, since talking is not an option right now, let's go over the itinerary." I hand everyone  a printed paper as we sit in the living room together. Leslie, the Tour Manager, and I worked hard to coordinate this agenda. Right now, we are working on month one, but I broke it down and printed up day one for everyone here to look over. Just to get an idea of what to expect as well as not to overwhelm them. 

"Now we had planned on going a week early to sight see it that all depends on a clean bill of health for Nate. So I'm not going to go over that packet yet. Not until we know for sure we can go early. Let's flip to page three, 'Day 1 Night 1 London'. The flight is roughly ten hours and thirty minutes. But we will be taking Nate's private jet."

"Wow. A private jet?!" Casey's can barely contain her excitement, making Nate laugh a little and nod. He knows he needs to refrain from using his vocal chords until his throat heals. Nate grabs his phone and types away and then hands it to me.

"He said we can all go see it tomorrow after their Avalon session if you guys like." They are all gonna love the plane. It's amazing! I still can't believe Nate put my name on the title under his. It's bittersweet. I know what he's doing, too, which saddens me. Nate is planning ahead, isn't he? He doesn't think his heart is gonna make it as long as his dad's did, does he? 

I hope he's not giving up.

I snap myself out of my thoughts and continue reading the itinerary. Then I notice James start to become nervous. No one else seems to notice. Everyone is just reading along. 

But I notice. I can see it right away.

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*James*

A wave of apprehension overcomes me. I'll be in a hotel room .... alone? What if something happens? What if I have a seizure? I haven't been alone since the accident and I'm suddenly very nervous and uneasy. 

Everyone's gonna go off and do their own thing. Julia will be sightseeing with Nate.  I'll be alone. I can't go out alone. I can barely twist a door knob. I look around the room at all the excited faces and feel a pit in my stomach. What was I thinking? I can't do this.

 Trisha is excited about the tour. This is right up her all alley. But it's unlike anything I'm used to. Especially being disabled now.

We finish up the meeting, and everyone gets ready for bed. Julia and Nate both still have to show up at the Avalon every day they can until tour. I head out to the balcony for some fresh air.  I plop down on the patio couch and look out at the city lights. I'm  too nervous to travel.  I don't know what I was thinking.

"We're going on tour." Julia comes out to join me on the balcony. She seems excited about this adventure.

"Are you excited?" She asks.

"I am. I'm just a little nervous, too. I don't travel much." I admit and look down at my hands. "And..." I pause, trying to come up with the right phrase without sounding like a fucking five year old who's scared to be alone.

"What?" 

"I ju- just.." I drop my head in defeat. "I'm not used to being alone anymore."