Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 32 Fine Line

*James*

"Jamie, I really think it's too much for you."

Apparently, my sisters have caught on to the fact that having Julia detox in my home is a lot. Jennie saw it firsthand and of course, told the rest of the girls. During lunch at my mom's house, they decided to have a little meeting with me. Well, the ones that were available ... Katie, Kendall, and Gwen. Ashley and Jennie are working.

"Guys. It's fine. I don't mind having Julia at my house." I am not saying this very convincingly, am I? I'm not a bad person and I love Julia with all my heart. But the girls are right. This is too much. My home is no longer my relaxing little home. It's become a place I no longer enjoy because you never know what you will get when you walk through that front door. 

Again, I love Julia. But this isn't Julia. Detox Julia is a very different person.

"Anyway, there is no other place for Julia to go. She's not going to The Avalon." I continue as Maggie jumps up on my mom's couch and lays across me. My dog can tell this conversation alone is stressing me out.

"Can I voice my opinion? " Claudia asks and we all welcome it while sitting together in the living room. Mom is upstairs taking a nap, so this is Claudia's break. "James, I know this is your best friend and she means a lot to you. But your health comes first. You suffered an awful accident, needed brain surgery, was in a coma, then mute and unable to walk.... and still healing from your injuries.  Brain injuries can take years to heal, especially after vegetative state comas. You have your work cut out for you and your focus right now is to make sure ALL areas of your brain can heal properly. You need a place to lay your head that is stress free. The environment you live in needs to be calm. That's just my medical opinion." The young nurse says and the girls, of course, all agree with her.

Crap. 

I agree with her too.

"I can't just kick her out!" 

"Can't she like...I don't know... stay at Nate's apartment while touring or something? Take that bodyguard with her?" Kendall asks.

"You seem to forget I can't live alone. Guys, if I have a seizure.... Jesus... I can't even get myself dressed!" I remind them. The nurse knows EXACTLY what I mean. If I have a seizure and lose bladder control, I'd have to sit in it until someone came over and helped me.

"Sooo..then we take turns sleeping over your house. We can all do that. Well......not Katie.... but you know... the rest of us." Gwen chimes in.

"I can't ask you guys to babysit me like that. It's not fair for you guys to uproot your lives..."

The girls all end up all laughing and I cock my head a little in confusion at some inside joke they have going on.

"Jamie..... while you were on your little tour around the world, we'd crash your house to watch movies or just to get away from mom when she was having a bad day. We are all VERY comfortable at your house." Ashley admits and I squint my eyes at them all. 

"You little squatters!" I tease though my family knows they are always welcome over regardless of if I am home or not. Well.... unless I'm having sex or something. That's a different story.  But the girls are all willing to take turns hanging out with me so I'm not alone. Maybe this is a good thing.  Maybe I need this. Maybe this needs to happen. 

But I dread telling Julia.

Instead, I run it by Trisha first. We facetime her and she picks up right away. Nate is right next to her. I tell them everything and at first, I think Nate was pissed. Like I'm bailing on Julia. But then he agrees.