Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Ch 45 & 46 Feed Them Lies/ All In My Head

*James*

Yesterday was perfect. Well, after the Avalon. Yesterday with Trisha was perfect. Last night, during dinner, when we kissed.... it felt right. Even though we got interrupted by Nate calling to give Trisha an update, that is. It felt right yet...I still think of Julia. How the hell am I ever going to get over someone I saw my forever with? I'm having a really hard time with this. I'm not sure I'm ready to start a new relationship right now. But it's Trisha. Damn it, I'm so confused right now.

Around eight thirty Nate's driver took me home where Ashley and Jennie were waiting for me. I need to have a conversation with my sisters. Might as well start with the two sleeping over tonight.

"You're moving back into Nate's? Why?" Jennie looks offended. She's getting the pull-out couch ready for bed and I really need to get this out before the end of the night.

"I'm not moving in permanently. It's just. Guys you know..." I stall while standing in the doorway.

"No. We really don't." Ashley says.

"It's a lot. I'm a lot.  And that's ok. I'm used to it now. But you guys aren't. I don't expect you to know how to take care of me. That's not your job."

"Are you saying we aren't doing a good job??" Ashley takes offense now and I sigh.

"No! No.. that's not what I'm saying Ash. Not at all. I'm not explaining this very well, am I?"

"Not really...."

"Ok." I inhale. "When I'm at Nate's everyone knows just what to do. I don't have to remind them. I don't even have to say anything. They just know. Because they've been taking care of me for so long. When I'm there I don't feel like I have anything wrong with me. There's FIVE of you trying to take care of me. Five people I have to constantly remind when I can't hold my coffee cup, or a bar of soap. Five of you I have to remind I can't untwist a water bottle or button my shirt.  Every time I remind you all, I remind myself of everything that's wrong with me."

"Jeeze, Jamie. Way to make us feel bad." Jennie furrows her brows at me.

"I just- I don't want you to be my caretaker. I want you to be my sisters. That's all. Not only that, I enjoy being there.  There are two nurses. And-

"And Julia, who you are in love with who doesn't love you back. Who is a complete disaster of a person that brings a ton of stress to you." Jennie speaks for Ashley who nods in agreement. "You're making a huge mistake."

Ok. This is not going as well as I hoped....

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*Trisha*

My feelings for James are strong and I think he feels the same way. Last night's kiss reminded me of that. Life got in the way a little but maybe we could make something out of this. The only fear I have is ruining the friendship we have right now. Though I don't think that is possible. Not with James.  And last night was perfect.

I went back to Nate's after Ren dropped James off. No way am I staying in my apartment alone. Not with Dave lurking around for all I know.

This morning Nate dragged Jonah with him to the Avalon. They have a meeting with Jeremy to hopefully figure all this shit out with Julia.

"Morning sunshine." I tease Casey who looks like she got no sleep at all. "You good?"

"Mmhmm." She grumbles while sipping her coffee.

"That was the least convincing 'Mmhmm' I've ever heard." I plop down on the couch next to her and steal some of her blanket. "Talk."

"Me and Jonah got into a little.... tiff... before he left. That's all."