Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 54 Lost My Way

*Trisha*

One thing I'm certain of, I've become addicted to James Gallo. I can't get enough of him. It's crazy! We've already had sex a handful of times and we just became a couple. We had a rocky start but it's only because of Julia. In a way, I'm glad she knows, and everything is out in the open.

"Morning sex it the best." I mumble. Once we knew everyone was in their bedrooms last night, I snuck into James's room and spent the night with him. It was outstanding. This morning, I woke up and wanted more. I've never been like this! Again, aside from Nate.

Now we both lay completely naked in James's bed after not one but two rounds of sex. The guy really is a machine.

"I could get used to this." James breathes out with a sleepy smile. I just gave him the ride of his life and am still straddled on top of him. I lean down and kiss his lips, biting the bottom one a little and feel him twitch inside me.

"You can't be serious." I whisper.

"What? I can help it. There's a beautiful blonde woman sitting on my lap." He ticks his hips up, hard and wanting round three.

"How?! It's not normal!" Yet here I am, rocking my hips into him a little.

"I have a healthy sex drive."

"Aren't you afraid you'll knock me up?" I laugh, knowing full well I have an IUD, thanks to Nate's strong swimmers.

"Not possible. I had a vasectomy."

"You did???"

"Yeah, after Carter died." James says in a more somber tone.

"Oh right. Sorry I forgot."

"That my son died??" His eyes are wide.

 Well, the mood is gone, I can tell you that much. I lift off him and lay next to him on my side.

"Sorry. You just don't talk about him much. It slipped my mind." I admit.

"It's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of when I fall asleep."

I swallow hard, feeling like a complete ass now.

"But why would you get a vasectomy? Wouldn't you want to try and-"

"Replace him?" James furrows his brows at me. I'm not doing too well here, am I?

"No. I mean... No. Of course not." I fumble.

"You never forget. You never stop thinking about it. And I could NEVER replace my son." He looks away from me and I remember, James and I really don't have a ton in common, do we? Him and Julia have this strong connection. Among other similarities, they have both lost their sons.

"Sorry. You can't understand unless you've gone through it. I don't expect you to understand." James lightens up and smiles halfheartedly at me.

I nod and peck his lips. But the sex is done for now. James is deflated after talking about the death of his son and I can't blame him one bit.

"Can you help me get dressed before you go? You should... well... I mean... before everyone wakes up, you should probably go back to your room. Right?"

"Yeah... ok. Right." I get out of his bed and help him get dressed before I throw on one of his T-shirts to cover myself. I wonder if we are fine. I feel like James is a little off now.

Once dressed I slip out of his room but before he closes the door, I pull him in for a kiss. I feel his hands gravitate down to my ass and he pushes me in more. We're fine.