Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapters 116 & 117 Breaking The Silence/ This Changes Everything

*James*

No one is surprised Julia is upset hearing Mila Giovanni will be working with Nate again. The worst part is, Julia didn't find out from Nate first, she saw it on the news. What we are surprised about here is that she didn't flip out or have one of her manic episodes like we expected. Instead, she isn't speaking to anyone. She takes her meds and still helps me with everything, but she says absolutely nothing to any of us. I think this is her way of shutting down without really shutting down. Julia is not one to talk bad about people, so I think she figured if she has nothing good to say then say nothing at all. Either that or this is her way of processing shit.  We're not sure.

Nate has tried calling, texting, sending messages through Paul and even trying to come by and talk to Julia in person. She doesn't give him the time of day. I try not to get involved when it comes to her and Nate but I can see how Mila working with him would be devastating to Julia. What was meant to be a publicity stunt between Nate and the supermodel ended up turning into more. Then he started treating Julia like shit and earned a swift slug to the face from me once I heard about it. Ahh, the good ol' days.

"Still not talking to anyone?" I nudge Julia while she helps me with breakfast. "Babe. You can vent to me. I get it. You know I do." I rub her arm in a soothing way but Julia keeps her eyes lowered while peeling my orange for me. 

"Anyways, are you guys even together? You said you needed space.... from everyone."

Julia glares up at me. Ok, maybe that was a bad choice of words and timing. But it's true. If Julia needs space from everyone, then she needs to follow through and take the space. I will just stay out of this one and be here for her when she needs someone.

Even though she chooses not to talk to anyone, I continue on like nothing has changed which earns a slight smirk from Julia.

"Well, Trevor is going to take me to morning session. Mike is gonna try and go too." I look over to Mike. He doesn't look like is he ready to sit through a session yet but by law he is supposed to. If his parole officer were to come by and see he isn't doing what he is supposed to do or find out he used drugs again, he'd go straight to jail. Do not collect. Do not pass go. In the slammer. So yeah, Jeremy said he has to do this now.

"You want to come with?" I ask Julia like I do every single day but she declines without using words. "Suit yourself. Eventually you're going to have to start going, though." 

Paul answers the door and Trevor is here to bring us down. Mike lets out a sigh.

"Sure you don't want to join us, sunshine?" He smirks. Mike is probably the most sarcastic human being I have ever met in my life. But he's harmless and I don't mind his company. He doesn't bother me at all.

"And eventually you're going to have to start talking to me, sweetie. I miss you." I whisper close to Julia's ear before I head out.

"Are you sure you want to attend this meeting? This session is more of an AA meeting, geared towards addicts, James." Trevor is curious on my motives.

"I know it's an AA meeting. Actually, I was wondering..." I stall while we continue walking down the long hallway. "If while Mike was in his mandatory meeting if you could take me to visit Cara Hollan? I have a feeling she doesn't get many visitors these days." I pause. "I didn't want to ask Julia to take me because she not really with it these last few days. But I can't go anywhere alone... you know... these damn seizures and shit."

"Oh." The well-dressed doctor says. "Of course! That's good thinking, James. And really kind of you to want to pay a visit to Cara. She could use a friendly face once in a while."