Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

chapter 119 & 120 This Is Where It Ends/ It Will Be Alright

"It's fine, mate. This has happened to me before. I should have known this is where it ends. You can only get so far with me, you know?" He rambles on but I have no damn clue what he is talking about. "My job gets in the way every fucking time. I can give her the world but can't give her the one thing she needs. Stability."

"Nate, Pal, you're not making any sense. Him WHO?" 

"This is where it ends."

"Ok, I don't know what's going on, bud. I can't help you if you won't talk to me." I reach over and clumsily put a hand on Nate's shoulder. Jesus Christ, he's shaking. He's really upset.

"Paul." Nate looks up at me and for a moment, he looks like a sad child. his blue eyes are watery and is face is stained with tears.

Paul... 

I sit up straight.

"Paul?"  My eyes widen. Holy shit. PAUL?!?

"Paul." Nate drops his head in his hands and loses his damn shit, not caring that he's crying in front of me. At first, I look away out of respect. But right now Nate doesn't need respect. He needs a friend.

I lean over and reach to place my hand on his shoulder while he is hunched over. I drop my head and I pray over the man. Sometimes I pray silently in my head. Not tonight. Nate needs to hear this prayer.  I pray out a little louder than a whisper for God to comfort Nate. Because he's obviously so distraught he's gonna give himself a heart attack. And he's so in love with Julia, something like this WILL kill him. 

While praying I can't help but think of what Nate just told me. Paul. Really?

 He's known Paul longer than I have. Since he was a teenager.  I had no idea.

After I pray over Nate for a good five minutes straight, I lift my head. He wipes his eyes with a nod of silent thanks. It's the least I can do for the guy.

"So. Um... Paul? Really?" I'm having a hard time digesting this information. "What..like a one-time thing or something?"

Obviously, that was the wrong question to ask because Hollan bursts into tears again, right after I finally got the guy to calm down. It takes him another two or three minutes to pull himself together before he can speak again.

"The damn bloke has been in love with her since day one." Nate answers.

Wait. WHAT? My eyes widen hearing this. Rossi NEVER hinted around to being even the slightest interested in Julia. Not even a little. Julia has been here for months. He's been around her day in and day out and never did I think he more than tolerated her, nevermind love her. 

"Day one. No. Who told you this??" I still can't believe it. Maybe Julia overexaggerated, though she's not one to do that. Julia tells it like it is.

"Paul." Nate mumbles.

Holy shit.

Oh no... Trisha... This explains it. No wonder Paul has been trying to separate himself from Trisha. He isn't in love with her. He's friggen in love with Julia! This whole time...

Trisha is going to be devastated. Not so much because it's Paul. I'm not sure how close their relationship really was. But because it was Julia.