Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapters 71 & 72 Let The Battles Begin/ Winners And Losers

Everyone but me.

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*Trisha*

After cutting up James's food for him I let out a sigh when he doesn't get off the couch. I walk over and sit on the edge of the couch, raking my fingers through his hair.

"C'mon sweetie, you need to eat."

"I'm really not hungry." He doesn't budge. I lean over and kiss his lips, but he doesn't kiss me back or even pucker his lips a little.  James is falling deeper into depression over this trial, and I don't know how to deal with it. He's usually so outgoing, carefree and funny. I'm not used to this side of James and question where we stand in our relationship, if there is on. As it is, I've been sleeping on his couch instead of in his bed with him. By the time I get to bed, Maggie has already taken my place. She's a good therapy dog but it kind of stinks he wants his dog to cuddle with over his girlfriend. I try not to read into it too much since he is going through a lot right now.

I also don't force James to eat. He's a grown adult man. If he isn't hungry, he isn't hungry. But I know depression is playing a part in this.

"I'm really tired. Can you just help me get ready for bed?" He mumbles. It's not even eight o'clock yet. James just doesn't want to be around people.

"Of course." I pull him up and we head to his room. I can feel Nate's eyes on me though. 

James is extra clumsy tonight, and I have to help him more than usual with getting undressed, brushing his teeth and stuff. I pull the covers of his bed down and he climbs in but turns to his side facing away from me.

"Are we ok?" I comb my fingers through his hair as he shuts his eyes.

"Yeah, just really tired."

"Ok." I kiss his cheek, and Maggie jumps up on to the bed, taking my spot once again.

"Is Gallo fine?" Nate asks when I sit down at the table. I shrug and start eating dinner.

"He said he's just really tired." I answer.

"Are YOU ok?" Nate takes my hand.

"Yeah. I'm ok."

I'm also a great liar because I am anything but ok right now.

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It's another day and another day I'm going to end Nate's life. For good this time.

In fact, I'm going to kill Hollan. Murder him.

 Nate and Evan walk in this afternoon from his meeting with the lawyer to mend things. Come to find out his attitude got in the way yet AGAIN!

"You walked out? You fucking walked out? Seriously?" I glare at Nate after he tells me the story.

"It was epic." Evan chimes in.

"Shut up, Evan." Nate rolls his eyes at his bodyguard.

"Yes, sir." Scofield is still smiling stupid behind that perfectly groomed beard of his, making me laugh.

"God, maybe you should have been a lawyer, Nate." I shake my head at the big dope.

"I needed to put a fire under her, ok? This isn't some game. If this becomes dirty because her and Colton are at each other's throat, I will go public with it all and look for someone clean. We can't risk it."

Nate looks around the room. "Where is James, anyway?"

Jonah and Casey are watching a movie on the living room couch while I join Evan at the kitchen island with a cup of tea. Paul is.... probably at the Avalon again or something. Who knows.