Invisible String - Pacey Witter

Chapter Twenty-Two

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All along there were an invisible string tying you to me

It was a big thing that hit me as hard as it did, I like Pacey Witter.

Whether I wanted to or not, whether I could, I totally did like him.

Oh god, why me? I am the most inconvenient person to have this happen to. He's my brothers best friend. He's my friends ex. He is the worst person to like.

Do I tell anybody? Should I? I mean maybe I should keep it all to myself and tell absolutely no one.

At some point in our spring break week, it slipped out to Jen.

I kept it hidden during the times she brought it up slightly.

She was telling me about the Henry thing, everything about it.

"I'm actually jealous" she freaks out. "I've never been jealous before Daph."

I laugh at her. "It means you actually like him" I smile to her.

"But I don't know how to control it."

"So it just feels uncontrollable, right? Just don't give it the time of day. Don't let her get to you and he needs to reassure you nothing is happening."

"I know I'm just worried about it, I mean have you seen her?"

"Have you seen you? Jen it'll be okay" I smile to her.

"Okay, well, I need a distraction from my big mess. How's things with your predicament?"

"Oh nothing, he's gone away so there is nothing else going on."

"Really? Last time you brought it up, you said it was a terrible mistake. Now no comment?."

"Oh it was his huge mistake, but I have no further updates."

"You like him, don't you" she smiles to me.

"What" I try to act out a bit. "No."

She gives me a look that says she knows. I cross my arms and stay silent until I can't anymore.

"Okay fine, you're right. I like Pacey. Are you happy now? Cause I'm not."

"Oh I'm extremely happy, but why are you not?"

"Jen I can't like him. He's friends with Dawson and dated Andie. Two circumstances that are extremely unfortunate."

"Unfortunate but can't stop your feelings for him. And his feelings for you."

"I really don't think he feels the same way."

"Then why would he kiss you?"

"Because of what the moment entailed. It made sense for the moment, but he doesn't see me that way. I am just going to let this whole thing die out. There is only a little bit of high school left, I'll waste I pining over him and then try to move on afterward. That's my plan."

"You can't plan a crush, Daph. Accept it, you two are made for each other. End of story."

"No the end of story is that this is stupid and I can't believe I like Pacey" I complain. "It will get better, won't it?"

"Oh Daphne, my naive friend, you don't know anything about crushes do you?"

I really don't know what to do about this stupid crush. Most of my crushes in the past hadn't felt so real. They all were coming from little interactions and my imagination. This one was real and I did actually like the guy. I actually like Pacey.

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All along there were an invisible string tying you to me