Invisible String - Pacey Witter

Chapter Twenty-One

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All along there were an invisible string tying you to me

It was spring break, the time I usually would spend at my aunts house.

I have since learned that most of my friend group is going: Dawson, Joey, Jack, Stephen, Andie, and Pacey.

Dawson and joey were regulars in this annual trip. I would be too, but I didn't really want to go.

I mean Pacey was going, and I was tied to working my parent's restaurant this week.

They all leave; I tell Dawson to tell our aunt I love her.

I say my goodbyes to all except Pacey and his extra friend, who I leave before I feel compelled to.

I stay in my room until thirty minutes to my shift.

I go down there and notice something is off with Jen.

"Jen what's wrong" I ask noticing her demeanor.

"Oh nothing" she says. "Do you think Henry would cheat?"

"On you? He's even lucky to be with you. No, he wouldn't dare Jen."

"Thanks Daphne" she smiles. "I'm just nervous about her."

She points over, I look. I mean it doesn't look perfect for everyone involved, but not too criminal.

"I wouldn't worry about it Jen" I let her know.

"So how are things with Pacey? You talk to him yet?"

"No" I answer. "But I'm not forced to Jen. He made his decision."

"His decision to kiss you was something quick and maybe he did make a mistake" She explains. "Now I don't even know if you like the guy like that but maybe give him a chance to be your friend again."

"I don't know Jen, I'm just too worried about everything and everyone involved. I myself don't really want to be involved either."

"How about this? I take your shift over and you go out and do something while you think. Maybe go shopping. Or you could go outside and go through your dance routine again. Or go on a hike. Or horseback riding. Anything Daph!"

"Okay like half of those are things I would never do" I laugh. "But you would do that?"

"Of course I would, you need this time to think, and you are my best friend."

"Is part of this because you want to spy on Henry?"

"I mean part of it is, but the other part cares enough about you to do that. Go off, leave while you can" she says dramatically as I walk out the door laughing, excited a bit for what I would do with my day.

I guess I never get to go shopping, I do have the money for it now. Why the hell not?

I continue walking downtown but can't get things out of my mind.

I walk into the bookstore and look at all the different books I wanted, but shouldn't get at the same time. My mind is occupied with other things.

I mean. why would Pacey do this? Now things re ruined between us. And who will I hang out with. I mean this guy, for some reason, was how I spent most of my time. It's ruined now. And for what? A little kiss. Does he even like me?

I leave with only one book purchase, Jane Austin's Sense and Sensibility. I haven't read it for a while, so I don't see why not purchase it and give it a go.

I walk into a random clothing store, maybe there were cute skirts or jeans in there.

I don't think that Pacey did like me, I mean think of the moment. He is alone with a girl and she is going on about how great of a guy he is. It was probably just an impulse.

I find a sale on skirts; buy three get one free. What a steal.

I mean he's on a trip with his ex girlfriend anyways, I bet something between them could come back. They go on a walk around my aunts town, she brings up what they have turned into. He agrees, they get back together. Its a certain recipe that I notice happens a lot.

I leave the store holding many shopping bags I didn't need, but I was moving onto the next store. Another clothing store, but so many things that are cute.

I wouldn't see them getting back together at all though. I mean I don't think they could, after all that history. I mean what does she see in him? Hès not even that cute. Andie isn't the girl that Pacey would need to date anyway. I mean sure, Shes wonderful, but not what he needs.

I don't really find anything at the store, but it was getting late anyways.

I decide I want to continue walking though, let myself think.

Pacey needs someone that knows him, that can be around  him easily. He needs someone that is patient with him, him and his stupid thinking. Someone that can help him with all the little things. Pacey is a special kind of guy, he needs a girl that will take care of him. I mean, he's such a slob too. Always making a big mess. What am I stressing about anyway? It's just Pacey.

I continue walking around to find stores or something to eat.

I found somewhere to sit, right next to a fountain.

I mean I guess he is sort of cute, in a Paul Rudd sort of fashion. Maybe? But he dresses funny. Everything he does is dumb. He always find a way to do something stupid. He needs someone with imagination. He's kind of a dork, really dorky. He needs someone to be alright with that, not embarrassed.  And he's always using his big mouth, couldn't take him anywhere with it. And he needs someone to laugh at his stupid jokes, I can do that.

Then I realize, realize something so big I stand up.

Oh my god, I like pacey.

The person I had totally been describing was me, I was the one who wanted Pacey. I like Pacey Witter. In a turn of events, it all happened.

It hit me suddenly and hard, I totally and strangely like Pacey.

I like his big, dumb mouth. I like all his stupid sentences. I liked all the messes he made. I could take care of him, I could laugh at him, I could laugh with him, I could do anything with him. I totally liked Pacey Witter.

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All along there were an invisible string tying you to me