Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 54 Lost My Way

"Knock it off you two." Nate's British voice makes us both jump and break our kiss. James shrugs and closes his door to go back to bed, but I now feel awkward as all hell.

"Want me to make you breakfast?" I walk to the kitchen, feeling embarrassed.

"I want you to not be doing that. Not here. C'mon Trish... this is going to kill Julia when she comes back home." He crosses his arms over his bare chest and furrow his brows.

"Comes back home.... Nate.... She's not coming back home, remember?" I blurt out, immediately wishing I held my tongue. What is wrong with me today! "I mean, I don't mean it like that. Well... I do... but-" I lift my hand to tuck the hair away from Nate's forehead, but he swats me away.

"Get out of my face."  He goes back to his room, back to bed.

Ugh. I can't win today and it's not even eight in the morning,

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*James*

Once Trisha leaves my room I lay back in bed. It's still early. Maggie is still sleeping right here in her doggy bed. She is pretty good with waiting for Casey to come get her to go out to pee but also has a pee pad right here that she is trained to use in case she can't wait. She's only needed to use it a handful of times though.

Unfortunately for me, once Trisha leaves the room I begin to think about Julia. I wish I could finagle my hands to use a phone. I could at least text Julia to say good morning and see how she is today. I need to go see her. I hate how we left things. 

Right as I begin to doze back off to sleep, I hear a little knock on my door. Casey. She is good with always knocking first.

"Good morning. Did you sleep ok last night?"

Sleep? Trisha and I barely slept. That much I know.

"Perfectly." I lie.

"Do you need help with anything, or do you want to still rest?" Casey asks, the nurse in her coming out.

"I may go back to sleep for a little while." 

"Ok. No problem. I'll take Maggie out for a run and come back to check in on you in a bit."

Maggie hears her name and bolts up, practically pouncing on Casey like she does when Julia is around. I seriously think she thought it was Julia for a moment. They really do look similar, and both have soft spoken voices...when Julia isn't having a fit that is.

After they leave, I toss and turn for a while and then give up on sleep. Only problem. I think everyone else is still sleeping and Casey took Maggie out for a run. I do my best in the bathroom and head out to the kitchen.

I can't start the coffee.

I can't make my own breakfast. 

I can't even unscrew the milk carton if I wanted to dump cereal into a bowl.

I frown, wishing Julia were here. She could always just sense when I was up. So long as she wasn't in one of her shut down modes, she'd be the first one to help me.

My stomach growls and I frown. I don't want to bother Trisha. We really didn't get a ton of sleep last night. And I'm sure as hell not waking Nate up, though he WOULD help me. But he's grumpy in the mornings.

Paul has been at the Marriott covering for Will. Guess I'll have to go wake up Jonah.

I tap lightly on his door but hear no movement. I try to twist the knob, but my wrist won't twist for me. After a few tries, I give up.