Point Of View 2 [*Do not read until you've read the same chapter of ATW]

Chapter 52 & 53 Why He Does What He Does/Hey Jealousy

"We tell each other everything Julia. That's what best friend's do."

"You've met someone, huh?" She looks down and wrings her hands together nervously.

"Met someone?" Shit. Yep. Didn't take Julia long to catch on at all. We ARE best friends. Of course she would sense something was up when I didn't kiss her.

"You're moving on. Any other time you would see me you wouldn't hesitate to kiss me. That's ok. You're not mine to keep. I'm happy for you. Just....sad." She opens up to me. I don't know how to respond. The words just won't come out. Instead, I put my hands on top of hers and let out a slight sigh. "I'm happy for you." 

"I'll always love you, Julia. You know that." I remind her but the air in the room feels thick with tension now.

"What's her name? Where did you guys meet?"

"Babe..." I hesitate. I can't tell Julia who I'm with. We haven't gone "public" with this news. Trisha would kill me. But Julia is my best friend. I tell her everything. Always have.

"What? You're obviously seeing someone. Did you get back with Lindsay? Or meet someone new??"

"I didn't get back with Lindsay. I mean, yes. I've slept with her a few times here and there... but I didn't meet someone knew. I-I mean... Yes- I'm se-seeing someone..but.." I stutter, having a hard time with this conversation. I drop my shoulders and look down at her with sympathy. Sympathy because I know this very well may hurt her feelings finding out I'm seeing Trisha. Of all people.

"So... her name is...?" She drags her words out, trying to get me to answer her.

"Julia......"

"James." She laughs.

I'm gonna have to tell her. I take a deep breath before answering.

"Trisha. It's Trisha."

Julia stares at me for a moment like she heard me wrong.

"Trisha? As in....Trisha?" Her voice cracks and it breaks me. 

"Yeah, listen. Julia. It just kinda happened. I mean, we've been friends for a while and had a moment or two before the car accident..."

"You don't have to explain to me..."  She mutters and her bottom lip quivers. She's trying to be so strong right now. "I think you should go, though. I think you need to leave."

"Babe.... C'mon..."

"I- I really think you need to leave. James, go. Please go." Julia begins to cry.

"Julia, can we please just talk about this?" I cup her face and gaze at her, feeling awful for making her feel this way.

"Of all people." She whimpers and turns her head away from my hands. "Go." She demands. I can see she is about to lose control. Because of something I'm doing. I hate this. "GO!"

I nod and get up quickly. She's trying to warn me, and I heed her warning, respecting her wishes that she doesn't want me here anymore. I frown feeling a bit heartbroken though because I wanted to spend time with my best friend.

"C'mon Mags." I pat my thigh a few times, but Maggie doesn't budge. We just got here and even the dog wants to stay to visit. She knows Julia is now sad. "Maggie, let's go." I say more sternly, and the dog obeys and gets off the bed.

"I'm sorry, Julia. I never want to hurt you." 

"Well.... this one hurts. This one FUCKING HURTS!" Julia bursts into tears. "GO James!"

My own tears build up as I realize how bad I hurt Julia. I walk back out to the car and shake my head when the girls see me. I wipe my eyes before getting back in.