Hiyal

052

Sa paglalakad ko paalis sa cafeteria, dala ang aking pagkain, na kung saan naroroon rin sina Jairuz ay natigilan ako nang may makita na pamilyar na lalaking nakatingin rin sa likod ko, specifically kina Alice.

Napangisi ako.

Do you like what you just see huh kuya, PDA nila di ba? Can you stand your girl being touched by other man?

Kita kong napalipat tingin ito sa'kin na binigyan ko ng makahulugang tingin. Saglit ako nitong tinitigan at saka tuluyang umalis.

Hmm, masyado kang maamo Alice, napapaamo mo ang mga lalaking iyan. Just make sure you are taming them for good and not for bad baby, baka maipit ka at magkagulo pag- nagkataon.

Naglakad na ako tungo sa lugar na alam kong walang mangingialam sa'kin sa pagkain.
Nagugutom na ako, sana naman ay wala ng mangialam pa sa katahimikan ko.

Nagtungo ako sa isang likod ng building, kung saan tahimik at malinis, mayroon din doing upuan kaya't pwede ako doon.

When I reached my destination, I sat on the first chair that I saw. Makakain na rin ako!

I hold my burger and smile looking at it, look how yummy you are, you are waving at me burger-

"What are you doing here!?"

I was about to bite my burger as a girl shouted at my side.

Dang, sabing huwag munang mangialam ngayon oh.

I looked at the tree beside me, doon ay nakunot noo akong nakita si Marianne na mugto ang mata.

"A-Anong ginagawa m-mo dito?!" She asked again as she wiping her tears. Hilig talaga nitong sumigaw, tinis pa ng boses. I rolled my eyes, and didn't answer, I just bite my burger.

"Umalis ka na dito bago pa kita kaladkarin." Aniya ng babaeng mukhang nagiyak ng isnag timbang luha.

"Ikaw nalang, nakain ako." Sagot ko.

"You are really a bitch aren't you?" She muttered and padabog na umupo sa tabi ko.

Tahimik ang aming paligid, hinayaan ko nalang s'ya sa tabi, ang mahalaga ngayon ay makakain ako ng maayos.

Gusto ko talaga sa burger yung ham nito, tapos malaki at mataba pa. With matching malamig na soft drinks.

"Hindi ka man lang ba magtatanong kung bakit ako nagiiyak?!" Napahinto ako sa pagdedemand ng katabi ko, blangko ko s'yang tiningnan mula ulo hanggang paa.

She scoffed. "You are really unbelievable, Gaiyal!" She exclaimed.

Topakin din babaeng ito eh.

"Then..." I speak up. "You okay?" I asked not bothering with my nonchalant tone.

Hindi sumagot agad ang babae, ngunit suminghal muna. "Bakit pag sinabi kong hindi ako okay may magagawa ka ba?" She asked sarcastically.

Ay, siraulo talaga.

"Then, don't talk to me. Will you?" I asked tiredly. Kapagod gantong tao.

"Huh, magkapatid nga kayo!" She declared with a hint of pissed off face.

Sinong tinutukoy n'ya si Eyroh'ng katipan nya?

"Magkapatid na magkapatid kayo, parehas kayong manhid. Parehas kayong mga w-walang pakialam sa nararamdaman ng iba. P-Parehas k-kayo..." She said then started crying. She covered her face with her bare hands.

"Ang sama-sama n'yo. Wala kayong mga pakiramdam!" She yelled.

I stared at the girl. Now that she cried so much, she looks like she doesn't have make up. I knew it, she look pretty when she simply display her natural face like that.

But, hmm, lalim ng pinahuhugutan ng babaeng ito ah?

Hinayaan ko syang umiyak, at uminom ng beverage kong dala.

How handsome you are Eyroh to make a girl cry like this eh?

"You know, I don't really understand why do you have to stick with Eyroh like that, where in fact you look like a type of girl na can have the boy who's she wanted." Panimula ko na dahilan ng pagtingin n'ya sa'kin. I crossed my arm so as my legs.

"Do you like him that much to make you like a crazy bitchy girl?" I asked.

Agad itong umiling. "I don't like him! I..." Hinintay ko ang susunod na sasabihin nito. "I love him." Doon ako napangiti ng kaunti.

Love.

"I thought love should make you more beautiful?" She looked at me, for the first time like an innocent lady. Napangiti na ako ng malaki at napailing. "But, looks like it's the other way around. Look at you, you look like a mess." At saka ako tumawa.

"W-What?! How dare you?!" Here's the bitch Marianne again.

"Alam mo, takang-taka ako kung bakit ang daming nagkakagusto kay Eyroh at may babae pang umiiyak ng dahil sa kanya?" I scrunch my nose as I said that.

"You're saying that because you didn't see the soft side Eyroh had." Marianne softly said. Doon ay nagkainteres ako.

"Eyroh had a bad mouth everytime he curse someone pero he has this side that when he said those words, he promised that thing he surely do that for you. Eyroh, loves to say words that really opposite of what he will do." She paused and afterwards, "And e-even he is the baddest guy in the w-world, I believe that I... I can fix him."

Eh?

Doon na ako napangiwi.

Ayos na sana, sinira lang nong 'I can fix him.'

Sige nalang, ikaw na bahala doon Marianne, tingnan natin kung ma-fix mo pa ang topakin na yon.

Ramdam kong tumingin ito sa'kin ng seryoso. "I don't know what happened between you two, but I know you will never understand what I said dahil hindi nya pa naman iyon nagagawa sa'yo."

Tipid akong ngumiti rito. At least, I know now even a slightest good about Eyroh.

But yeah, I don't care how he treats other anyway, what's important to me is how he treats me. So, tagilid pa rin s'ya sa'kin.

"Hmm, kaya pala nagiiyak ka ng ganiyan dahil may ganon s'yang ugali, ganon ba?" Sarkastiko kong wika.

Napaiwas ito ng tingin. "If you are really praising him like that, why don't you also say bad things about him knowing he made you cry liked earlier?"

Katahimikan muna ang bumalot sa'min, hanggang s'ya ay magsalita.

"Eyroh... Eyroh sided with Alice instead of me. Lately he's been so cold to me, noong una akala ko kasi nagising ka na, kaya sobra akong nainis sa'yo kasi iniisip ko nadamay ang realasyon namin dahil sa'yo. But then, that girl came, lagi n'ya iyong kasama kahit na dapat akong girlfriend nya, nagalit ako. I confronted him, but he just said na parang kapatid lang ang turing n'ya kay Alice, I don't believe him. Since then we always argue because of that girl. I am mad, I am jealous. Naiinis ako! N-Now, he... he cool off our relationship. Fvck him, gusto n'ya lang maging malaya para makasama ang lintang Alice na yon! How dare him... H-How dare him hurt me like this." Sa haba ng sinabi nito ay doon lang s'ya napaiyak sa pagha- how dare him nya kay Eyroh.

Parang noong nakaraan lang sinambunutan ako nito, ngayon ay nagiiyak na dito sa tabi ko. Buhay nga naman.

Hinayaan kong umiyak ito ng umiyak.

I tap my fingers silently on the chair.

Hmm, you messed up Eyroh. Dumagdag ka pa.

Umiling-iling ako.

I looked at the crying and sometimes bitchy girl beside me, gusto ko nang umalis pero di ko pa kasi ubos yung pagkain ko eh.

Edi iyak lang s'ya d'yan, then ako naman kakain uli.