At just eleven years old, I had a dark thought
A plan to end it all, with a fabric knot
A scarf around my neck, my young mind so distraught
I envisioned my death, hanging from a spot
My days were consumed by a never-ending pain
A constant inner battle, I couldn't explain
Depression crept in, and it made me feel insane
I saw no way out, except ending the game
I felt alone, misunderstood and unseen
The burden too heavy, an unbearable scene
And so I plotted, my ultimate escape routine
To tie the scarf, and let my life cease to be
But then I thought of all the things I'd miss
The laughter, the love, the simple bliss
The warmth of the sun, the touch of a kiss
How could I leave it all, for a moment's abyss
The thought of my loved ones, left behind in pain
The thought of them blaming, themselves in vain
It would only add to my guilt and shame
I couldn't do that to them, it would be inhumane
And so I put away, my dangerous thought
I sought help and support, from those who loved
And with their help, my inner demons fought
I found a reason to live, in their warm embrace
Now I look back, on that dark moment in time
And I'm grateful for the strength, to continue the climb
Life is precious, and it's worth every dime
I'm glad I didn't end it, with a scarf around my neck's bind
So to anyone struggling, with thoughts of self-harm
Know that you're worthy, and you can disarm
The pain and darkness, that's causing alarm
You're not alone, and there's always a reason to charm.
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Umm...so this is based on something I actually tried to do to myself in the middle of the night. I still struggle with these things, but I've been trying to get better. I hope this reaches the right audience and I want to remind whoever reads this that you are enough. -Pip
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PoetryThis is essentially where I post my poetry that I've made over time. Any feedback is GREATLY appreciated since I'm still trying to improve! -Pip
