I long for a touch
But fear holds me back
A simple gesture
Is all that I lackMy skin aches for warmth
A gentle caress
But I'm paralyzed
By my own distressI want to feel wanted
To know I'm adored
But my mind convinces me
I'll just be ignoredWords of affection
Make my heart swell
But I struggle to believe
That they're true and realI yearn for connection
But I'm afraid to reach out
What if I'm rejected?
What if I'm not enough?I want to give and receive
Tokens of love
But I fear being seen
As selfish, not enoughI crave for the comfort
That physical touch brings
But my anxiety prevents me
From spreading my wingsSo I stand in the shadows
Hiding my desires
Wishing for someone
To ignite the fireTo break down my walls
And make me feel safe
To show me that love
Is not something to chaseBut until that day comes
I'll continue to hide
Holding my own hand
And finding peace insideFor I know that someday
I'll find someone who sees
The love and affection
That I have to release.-----------------------------------------------------------
My dad always called me Mary, Mary quite contrary. So, this is loosely inspired by that and my own, personal feelings towards that.
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PoetryThis is essentially where I post my poetry that I've made over time. Any feedback is GREATLY appreciated since I'm still trying to improve! -Pip