The Fifth Letter

16

Levi Berkshire:

Of course I didn't want to say all those mean things about her. But it was the deal with Ashton.

I fuck her, he leaves me alone. He leave us alone.

I wake up well before her which is weird considering she went to bed before me.
Heading to the kitchen I make breakfast for us, telling Gloria I wanted to do it.

Once the pancakes are made, from scratch might I add. I look up to see Lina glaring at me from the stairs.

When we meet eyes her glare vanishes and turns into a blank look.

"I made breakfast!" I say happily

She throws me a thumbs up and plops down on the couch.
Is she mad at me?

"Hey..what's up?" I ask

She sighs before looking over to me.

"Nothing. Tired." She says that walking into the kitchen

"No. Come back here. Sit down and talk to me." I demand

She doesn't sit.

"I- I think I love you" she mumbles

"You..love me?" I ask as she nods and looks at me with hope filled eyes

There's almost a pause in the air, like time itself stopped and for a moment, it was just us.

"I thought that we had decided not to fall in love?" I question, watching how the words reach her ears and crush her heart "I'm sorry but I-"

She shoots me a look.

"Don't worry" she says, "I've spent my whole life falling in love with people who don't love me back, it's nothing new" she sadly smiles retreating back to the kitchen

What the fuck just happened?!

I stand in shock at what she's said, the teacher was right, Goddamn it.

I leave her alone for a few hours, heading to the gym to alleviate some anger.

How did I fuck this up that badly?

I love her too. Fuck. I'm so infatuated with her. But it's not safe. Ashton and I were good up until to race. He laid eyes on my yellow and decided he wanted her.

I want to know more about her, so I do the only thing i know I have, the letters. I rush up to my office and grab the other 3 I have yet to read.

Their all labeled,

2, Mom
3, what you didn't ask.
4, why didn't you?

The titles confuse the fuck out of me, so I decide to read them, but I'll save that for later. Right now I need to find Lina.

I rush up to my room to find it empty, so my legs carry me towards hers. She's sleeping.

"Hi.." I say

Her eyes snap open and look over at me.

"Hello." She gruffly states

"I-"

"Don't even try it, Levi. Before you say some bullshit about how maybe if things were different and blah blah blah. After all the shit you said yesterday I'm fucking done." She stops me

She heard me?!

"Y-you don't understand! I-"

"I understand completely, you fucking asshole! You say you're nothing like my dad, and yet you're breaking my heart exactly like he did! I know you don't love me. But did you have to pretend like you do?!" She shouts through tears

"Evangelina. That is not fair. Never compare me to your father again. That is BULLSHIT!" I explode watching the salty droplets roll down her face

"Get out of my room."

"This is my house! This isn't your room! You live in my house for fucking free and you're telling me where I can and can't go?! Shut the fuck up!"

"Right. I forgot I'm just a guest here." She mumbles.

"You know that's not what I meant." I say softly realizing just how unfair I was being.

She nods and rolls over in her bed to face away from me.

"Look at me.." I ask her quietly

"You don't need me to, you've already got my "virgin ass" what do I need to look at you for?" She says before closing her eyes, and sighing.

I exit her room and slam my fist into the wall.

How do I manage to fuck everything up?!

This chapter was super short, sorry!

Word count: 692