FOOLISHLY IN LOVE WITH YOU

𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐞 [𝟗]

- If you stay silent when you're angry. You won

I lay in Josh's arms in his apartment as we watch 'The Witcher' series together

Today is Sunday that means no stress no mr knightly- The hell can't you get him out of your mind??
Nah

His hands go down and rest on my thigh I look up at him and he was watching the movie I smiled and brought back my attention to tv

His hands went higher making my breath caught in my throat his hands were reaching higher as I kept my hand on top of his smiling at him

He frowned "whats wrong?"

I shake my head "no nothing, Let's just watch the series?" I ask

He was unsure but then nodded and pulled his attention to tv

As he brings me closer to him I lay still unsure of what to do

Emma's words ring in my mind
"but remember if you don't feel safe in his arms or find comfort in his words he is not the one for you"

why is it that I do not feel any thing while laying in his arms? Is she right? I am so confused at this moment that what is there that she is hiding from me

My thoughts shake away as I feel his hands near my chest almost near I exhale loudly to give him sign that I am not liking it

But he kept going as his hands just graze at my chest I pulled away from
His eyes were widened and shocked "why won't you let me touch you?" He asked almost annoyed at me

I stare at him "No- its- just- I- I need to go I have some things to do" I put a tight smile on my face hoping he would fall for it

He shake his head then grabbed my hands "what is it nuts? Tell me as your friend" he raises his eyebrows

I look at him not knowing what to say I can't explain him the situation I am in or it might hurt him and I'd be guilty my whole life I don't want that

I shake my head then softly hold his hand "there is nothing josh I am just so caught up with work and its stressing" I lie and I feel so bad but that is the only choice

He nods then pull my face closer to him kissing me his eyes closed but I kept my eyes open I closed them tight then pull away "okay then bye" he murmurs

I nod "yes I'll see you" I take my purse my car keys and my phone waving him last time then walking out of his apartment

I exhale shakily as I lay down just out of his door and tears welled up in my eyes as I cry without any voice putting my hand on my mouth my body shaking a little as I cry

All of it is so confusing.. and it is hurting me

-

I make my coffee standing there staring at a wall which looks really great its white and no marks or paints on it polished perfectly

A cleared throat brings me back looking up I saw Mr Knightly

He looked so- *clears throat* good, His white crisp shirt showing as he wore midnight blue suit his suit jacket not buttoned as it is so I could see his lean figure, his cologne familiar now as he stood in front of me so handsome

"Good Morning Mr Knightly how may I help you" I say

He bit his lip looking at me for a moment then releasing it "Miss Bennet" he nods

His eyes do a quick roam around my body making me sweat just by his stare

"I wanted to ask you about something if you are free?" He asks patiently