Words that can't be written

Chapter 4

My consciousness back, and I hear people talking.

"It is not good to let her father know about this, ma'am.  And the child doesn't want her father to know, also." That is manong voice.

I tried to open my eyes to see who he was talking to.

"Is there any problem happening inside her own home that must be her comfort zone?"

Bago pa man may masabing iba si manong ay pinilit ko ang katawan kong bumangon mula sa higaan ng hospital "Why I am here?" It is my defense mechanism. Acts like nothing happened.

"You are over fatigue. There are too many bruises on your body that make you weak to create any movement, better rest, woman." I hissed when I heard him beside the door.

Hindi ko siya pinakinggan at inihanda na ang gamit sa gilid ko para umalis ng hospital. I settle this on my own, or anytime soon my father will know this, and this will be the chance to competitors to backstab my dad.

Nakaramdam ako ng sakit sa katawan, but it didn't stop me from walking out of this room. Inalis ko ang ang swero at nagbunga ito ng pagdudugo sa kamay ko.

"Let her. She's strong. She can bear the pain."

I smiled to manong and sign him that I was ready to go. I hold to his arm when my lower body becomes numb. I can not move it. I can't feel it. Tinignan si manong na nanghihingi ng sagot kung anong nangyari at tungkol sa nararamdaman ko.

Umiling ako sa kanya at pilit hinahakbang ang aking paa pero nabigo ako sa ikalimang ulit ko.

I heard that guy 'tsk' and looking confidently that his hypothesis is right.

Inalalayan ako ni manong makaupo sa bed. "Bukas, pwede ka ng lumabas ng hospital." Malamig nitong sabi bago ako tinabihan at ibinigay saakin ang aking telepono.

I look at him, displeased ng malaman kong nasa kanya ito. "What did you do to my phone?" I accused him checking my privacy through my phone, and he raised his arm in the air, expressing that he didn't do anything.

"I just call your recent call, and that him." Turo nya kay manong.

"How did you open it?" Tanong ko pa ng hindi ko pa makuha ang sagot na gusto ko.

"Walang password malamang easy access."

Napairap ako sa sarili ng hindi maisip at maalala iyon.

"Did you search something on this phone? Tell me the truth or else I'll sue you, my father is the best lawyer." I  said.

Tinaasan niya lamang ako ng kilay at inismidad. Is he thinking that I am too 'presko'? Fuck him then.

Inirapan ko sya at itinaas ang paa ko sa higaan at pagkatapos ay sinipa sya. "Out of my room," tinalikuran ko na ang mga tao sa aking pagkakahiga emphasizing that I don't want anyone in this room.

Rinig ko ang una at ikalawang yabag ngunit bumalikwas ako ng makita kong andito pa din siya. Inihahanda ang pagkain sa side table. He looks at me and raises with his hand the food that he is preparing.

"You should eat. you're too skinny."

Tinignan ko ang katawan ko at tama ang sinabi niya. Masyado akong payat at hindi bagay sa katawan ko. Mukha na akong matanda. Tuyot at maputla na ang mga balat ko. Nanunuyo na rin ang labi ko. I can be easily offended by his words.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at tumawag kay manong to bring me foods. He knows what food I take. And this man doesn't know about me. Faking her concern and expressing his pity. I hate everything from him. I hate him.

"Ano pa bang pagkain ang gusto mo? At inabala mo pa ang manong mo,"

"You're nosy, I hate it," a matter of fact.

Lumapit siya saakin at nagulat ako ng isinubo niya saakin ang isang kutsara ng lugaw. Sinipa ko sya ngumit hindi naabot ng aking paa dahil mabigat pa din ito.

"Pinapakain ka pa ba sainyo."

"Ikaw? Binubusalan ka ba palagi sainyo?"

Taka niya akong tinignan. Every time na ngingisi sya ay nag iinit ang aking bait. Madedescribe ako bilang isang bulkang taal na walang tigil kakaputok at nag hahasik ng galit sa mga taong nakapaligid.

"Republic act. no. 7438, article III, section 12, I have the right to remain silent. "

Inirapan ko siya at kinuha sa kanya ang pagkain at ako na ang nagsubo sa sarili ko.

"What happened to you? Bakit marami kang pasa sa katawan? Did someone hurt you? Did someone threaten you? You mention that your father is a lawyer. Did your father's competitors threaten you? How's your father? Is he okay? Are you okay?"

"Section 17, Article III of the Constitution, I invoke my rights against self incrimination, I refuse to answer."I fired back, and I saw shock run to his face.

Inilapag ko ang pagkain at tahimik na humiga ng hawakan nya ako sa bewang at hindi sinasadya na maitulak agad siya.

"Napapadalas ang pagtulak mo sakin, ganyan din ba ang mga gustong samahan ka sa laban? Balak mo silang itulak lahat? Including me? You never did it to me, you always chased."

Shock envelop my expression now. What is he saying? What game he is trying to play with me?

"I don't have anyone,"

"Then you have me now," he said in a calm voice. He is trying to tame me.

"Dream on."

"Mamaya ka na mahiga, kakain mo lang, I'm afraid you experience indigestion and heartburn."

Pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon ay lumabas na siya ng kwarto at ang muli namang pumasok ay si manong ng nakangiti. Inabot nya saakin ang mga pagkain ko, sinenyasan akong kumain ulit kasi hindi sapat ang lugaw na dala ng lalaki.

"I heard his name is Aiden Kyiel Xavier. They also owned this hospital. He is also an aspiring doctor and lawyer." Wala sa itsura niya na makinig ng istorya ng iba. Inilingan ko si manong at sinimulang kainin na naman ang mga pagkain. I deserve this after not eating for a damn week.

"I hate lawyer. And when did you become so nosy?" I joke around, and he just laughs. I love to hear those sounds. It makes me feel alive.

"I just think that name will be a good friend of yours."

"I don't think so."

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at muling sinuot ang bracelet na bigay ng daddy. "Wear this. You need this in your fight. And please don't push everyone who wants to join your battle."

Tumango ako sa kanya at yinakap si manong. He became a father figure for me. I am thankful to God that I have them. Even having an unhappy and incomplete family, God still gives me someone I can hold when I am weak.