Even After Everything (After #1) (COMPLETED)

09: Seb

"May anak na si Marco?"

I jumped when Bill suddenly put his face on my shoulder to peek at my phone. Pinatay ko muna ang phone at mahinang sinampal ang pisngi niya. Laughing, I hid my phone again and will think about it later.

"Sira. Paano mangyayari iyon?"

"I don't know. Alam mo na advanced na tayo ngayon." he puts down the two beers in front and sat across from me. "Surrogate, IVF, something like that?"

Mas lalo lang akong napailing. "How did you even know I was checking his story?"

"Guwapo at talented lang ako, bro, hindi bulag."

Tss. That's not even what I've thought about when I saw him post that. The kid was cute and though he's not within the picture, I knew his cuteness will never be topped by anyone. Hyung is always cute and pretty for me.

"Why are you even stalking him? Aayain mo uminom?"

"Nah." umayos ako ng upo at kinuha si Mars at tumugtog saglit. "Hindi nga siya uminom nang marami kagabi, pretty sure it's the reason why he didn't."

Kagabi ko pa iniisip kung bakit pumayag siya na sumama sa amin kung hindi rin pala siya iinom nang marami? Though sobrang lasing si Keith at Bill kahapon at sakto lang ako... Still, hindi naman ito humihindi noong nagkaroon kami ng ganoong ayaan.

Plus... when he decided to stop drinking and lean on the bed...

Wala pa siyang ginagawa pero sobrang lakas na ng pintig ng puso ko. I mean... he has no effect on me like that when we first met but... Kahit medyo rocky ang relationship namin noong baguhan pa lang...

It was also the reason why I softened up and started... Damn it... I couldn't even explain what I'm feeling yet but... enough na muna iyong iba ang nararamdaman ko sa kaniya at sa dalawa. It's not angry or naasar ako sa kaniya... It's different. It's a rainbow... He is raining but I'm willing to wait until he shows me his colors after the tumultuous moments of his life.

"How do I look?" it slipped like candy from his mouth.

And my answer came in very smoothly. As if it's not even something hard to answer. As if I've been waiting to say the answer and waiting for him to ask that question. As if I already knew he's gonna be like this once he became more open so I prepared myself...

"Always pretty for me." I said in a shaking tone.

Hindi ko sigurado kung narinig ba niya ang sagot ko dahil sinandal na niya ang ulo sa kama at pumikit. When I held him in my arms to put him in my bed, I was grateful to have that contact because it didn't come with his... you know, harsh comments or what...

Now, na-gets ko na kung bakit hindi ko na rin nasabayan ang dalawa na ubusin lahat ng binili nila: lasing na lasing na ako kay hyung at sa tinanong niya. I'm drunk from taking his pretty face in.

"Tagal ni Keith." Bulong ko at tumingin sa likod.

We're at the same spot where hyung was supposed to be sleeping for a couple days before he stopped. Hindi ko pa rin sasabihin sa kanila na he did that because it's betrayal and it's... harmless naman.

"Kumusta na pala kayo ni ano?" he's wriggling his brows at me at nakuha ko kaagad iyon.

"No idea."

"Sus."

Totoo naman 'yun, eh. Sa tingin niya, after what we did these past few weeks and our impending comeback shows, may oras pa ako isipin iyon? I mean, I kinda feel bad I didn't offer a closure pero mukhang okay na siya. Though I don't have any basis for that.