Even After Everything (After #1) (COMPLETED)

06: Marco

I couldn't tell this kid the exact reason why I'm on the rooftop, smoking and having red eyes.

So I told him I was just scared about the session we're gonna take tomorrow. Though it's really... true but still, it's not that.

Dumarami na uli ang tao sa buong building dahil nagsisimula na kaming mag-ayos ng mga gagawin para sa comeback and the amount of people clamoring in one room? I can't take it. So I had to get here. So no one will see how fucking low I think of myself after that...

Fuck.

I knew it was a bad idea. It really was. Awful. Horrible one. I could've waited until our fans bought our first single para may makuha na akong pera. But... wala nang oras. Wala na akong pupuntahan. Hindi na ako puwede mag-stay sa office tuwing gabi at gawing kuwarto iyon.

Kahit na maaga pa rin umaalis ang tatlo, may mga naiiwan pa ring mga staffs. Hindi ko na magawang iayos ang usual kong higaan at hindi puwedeng subukan ko kahit isang gabi dahil maaga pumapasok 'yung mga tao at baka madatnan pa nila ako na tulog sa office.

If Seb, who knew about our rule, didn't tell anyone, how come I will be assured that someone who are not aware of the rule would do the same?

So I had to call the person I've met in the motel the same night that kid and I saw each other again.

I dressed nice looking. Kahit mainit, nag-long sleeves ako dahil baka kapag civil clothes ang sinuot ko, people would wonder why a man in suit will meet someone like me in a pambahay clothes. He immediately agreed to meet us at one of the finest Japanese restaurant and for a moment, inisip ko bakit doon.

Then I arrived at the place and iginiya ako sa isa mga parang kuwarto na may lamesa sa pinaka-gitna. Everything is made from bamboo but breaking one is the least of my worries. After the staff closed the door and left me alone...

"Calm down." I said to myself after seeing my hands on table shaking. Tinago ko sa ilalim ng lamesa iyon but nothing happened.

What should I say to him until he agrees on my proposal? Fine. If I have to work for it, I would. I don't think he knows we're coming back to music, kaya ire-request ko na if he wants me to work, huwag niyang ibangga sa mga band schedules namin.

If he opted for I should work under his companies, then good. Besides, may degree naman ako roon. Damn it. I can feel my heart beating so hard against my chest. He isn't here yet... pero gusto ko nang umatras.

Can't you just wait until you get your cut, Marco? I mean... you have friends you can talk to... someone who's willing to welcome you in their house for a while. But.... but if it goes out in public I have no home, hindi ko alam kung magandang reputation ba sa akin iyon.

The nice staff returned with an appetizers and a cold water. Wala akong gana kumain dahil pakiramdam ko may nakabara sa lalamunan ko but when told what's he brought, napatango na lang ako.

The dumpling in front of me is appetizing... bahala na siya kumain mamaya pagdating niya. If you feel so little, I don't think eating will suffice it and bring you back to your normal shape and state.

I lost track of time but when the door that's literally on my side opened and I finally heard that deep voice instructing someone to not disturb him once he gets in and they all should leave, my whole body went rigid.

Usually, if you're trying to impress someone, or if you wanted that job position badly, you'll do anything and everything it takes to make that person appeal to you. One will help the other or greet him, but today?

No one taught me that. No one bothered to teach me how to impress someone because they are giving everything to me without second-thinking. So I sat there, watching him climb inside and take off his clothes before he joined me at the table.