And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let 'em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
♫︎♫︎♫︎

I remembered Erish while I'm singing. Wala sa sariling natawa ako ng mahina habang dinadama ang meaning ng kanta.

Bagay na bagay sa akin ang kanta.

Kung alam lang n'ya kung bakit ako umiiwas dahil iniisip ko na baka kaya ko pang pigilan, pero mali ako.

I'm so wrong.

Dahil nandito pa rin, hindi nawala. Mas lumalala pa nga.

At nagkamali ako sa part na iniwasan ko s'ya, imbes na ipaglaban ko 'to. And this time, hindi na ako uupo lang. Hindi ko hahayaan na palagi na lang s'yang masasaktan.

I'll do everthing, maiparamdam ko lang sa kanya 'yung pagmamahal na hindi sa kanya kayang ibigay ng iba.

♫︎♫︎♫︎
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here... been waiting here

Mmmmmm... Ohh...

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let 'em win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know... Ohhh...
Just so you know... Ohhh...

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
♫︎♫︎♫︎

I don't want to.... let go of you, Margaux Erish Santanilla.

Ilang kanta pa ang pinerform namin bago ang last solo performance ko.

"Kuya Josh, AJA!"

"Kuya Idol sana magustuhan ka na rin ng babaeng gusto mo."

"H'wag ka na ulit iiwas ah, baka kasi maunahan ka pa. Magiging kawawa ka tuloy."

"Huwag kang iiyak, Kuya Josh. HAHAHAHAHAHA!"

"Lumayas na nga kayo! Pinapahiya n'yo ako eh." Nagtawanan ang apat bago pumasok ng backstage.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago kunin ang iniwang gitara ni Santi. Ako ang huling performer bago magsimula ang Battle of the Band.

"Eheemm... Magandang gabi sa lahat. Maganda man ang gabing ito, wala pa ring gaganda sa mga manonood na nandirito."

Napangisi ako nang maghiyawan ang mga grupo ng kababaihan.

"AAAAHHHHHHH! PAKASALAN MO KAMI IDOL!"

"WE LOVE YOU JOSHHHHH!"

"I DO, FAFA JOSH! I DO!"

Hindi ko alam kung tatawa ba ako nang makarinig ako ng isang sigaw mula sa isang grupo na nasa may gilid ng stage.

"GAGO! I LOVE YOU PARE! NAKAKAPANLAGLAG NG BRIEF ANG BOSES MO. HHOOOOOO!"

DAMN YOU AGUILAR!

Pinakitahan ko naman ito ng middle finger bago tumawa.

The Lovestory That We Never Had | COMPLETED | ✔︎Onde as histórias ganham vida. Descobre agora