"Assalamu alaikum bahijaan" aliyah greeted Hamid opening the door.
" wa Alaikum salam" he replied taking her into a warm hug.
" aur koi nh aaya bahi" she asked, he denied it, her face fell.
" ap aaiye na, mein aapi ko bula ke leke aati hu woh khush hongi bhut apko dekh ke"
" umm mein khud chala jata hu"
" ji mein tab tak apk liye mast adark wali cahe aur kabab laati hu, maine aaj hi bnaye hai"
He knocked on the door looking at the house, he lived his thirty years of life, and every corner has its memories.
" aliyah mujhe nh khana hai khuch tumhe smjh nh aata" she yelled.
" Ruksaar open the door" his voice echoed in her ears, she halted in her place, thinking it must be her delusion, he didn't call back to her in the past two days, she lost all her hope.
" ruksaar darwaza khole" she took long steps and opened the door hastily, her eyes have tears, dark circles formed under her eyes, and her skin looked dehydrated, she lunged at him making him stumble on his feet.
" m...ujjjhe...bilk...ul...nh" she takes a heavy breath.
" acha shaant ho jaiye, bethe aap pehle"
" nh aap fir se chle jayenge,"
" I am not going anywhere ruksaar"
" apne mujhe maaf kr dia, maine kitni daffa apk call kia, messages kia, maine bhut glt kha, mujhe maaf krde, mein shehnaaz se bhi maafi maang loongi, I called her too but usne bhi call nh uthaya tha"
" ruksaar mujhe behad gussa aaya tha jb apne bola tha, ap aisa soch kese skti hai, aur mera hath uth gya maaf krde" she shook her neck.
" ap maafi na mange meri hi glti thi"
" ap apna khyal nh rkh rhi hai kesi halat bana Li hai, chle ab niche chle aur khuch kha le pehle apne bache ka aise dhyan rkhti hai ap" her eyes again filled with tears.
***********
" salam taya abbu, salam tayi ammi"
" wa Alaikum salam beta, aao betho, ye lo sidharth bhi aa gya" asfandyar said, they greeted each other with a simple handshake, and the feeling of awkwardness was present in between before sidharth take him into a bone-crushing hug.
" you became so much lean" he commented.
" like that, you became so much like taya abbu, the suit and all"
" aaj toh rukoge na hamid" fatima asked.
" ji kal subah ki flight hai,"
" sultan aur asma nh aaye" asfandyar asked.
" nh woh coaching centre khola hai abbu ne aur abhi abhi naya session shuru hua hai"
" woh humesa se kholna chahta tha, acha hai" he nodded.
There was a certain level of silence, awkwardness, and embarrassment in every pair of eyes, Hamid didn't talk much, only giving the answers to their questions.
***********
Standing on the terrace Hamid took a look at the neighbourhood where he was born, nothing has changed but seems like everything has changed.
" what are you seeing??" sidharth asked standing beside him.
" nothing"
" Hamid I am..." he takes a pause closing his eyes for a nanosecond.
" I am sorry, I reacted too much without knowing the truth, and my anger ruined your and ruksaar's life also.
" zindagiyan toh har ek saksh ki badli hai ish ghr me"
" you know mein humesa sochta tha cahe khuch ho jaye hum log humesa ek sath rhenge, haste, ladte par chotte se tufan ne hi bikher ke rkh dia sb khuch" sidharth stated blinking back his tears.
" tufan se toh hum sb syd lad bhi lete lekin jab aap jis shaksh se pyar karte ho woh apko aizyat de to baatein bhulai nh jaati, ghaav to fir bhi bhar jaate hai lekin Batein humesa yaad rehti hai sidharth"
" I am tired hamid and I don't know to whom I express, we were friends, we have this amazing understanding, I am feeling guilty, khuch bhi to thikh nh kar paaya mein, sb bikhar gya, sab khrab ho gya hai, andar se dum ghutta hai mera, I am not a person jo office jaye aur business kre, mujhe acha lagta tha padhana, and this whole world of business is so fucked up, I am lost, just because of my anger I ruined my sister's home and I broke shehnaaz heart too, she came to me before going, and I shut her off completely by asking her to leave, maine dekha tak nh ek baar ushe, she was there at my doorstep for fucking 20 minutes" he vents out.
" mein jhoot nh bolunga, I tried to find a suitable person for her par koi smjh hi nh aata hai, you were the only person I said yes as soon as I get to know about you, I had this security ki yahan woh khush rhegi, Tu care Karega, tayi ammi syd baaki saanso ki tareh taane to nh maregi, par..."
" woh strong hai bhut par jab baat aati hai apne ghrwalo se ya jisse woh pyar karti hai she became vulnerable, woh terse hurt nh hai aur Kabhi Hui bhi nh hai, maine dekha hai uski aankhon mein tere ky mayne hai, kitni Izzat karti hai teri, woh hurt hai tayi ammi se, ruksaar se, taya abbu se, she loved them a lot, teri to koi glti bhi nh hai, tu toh in sbme fass gya uski tarah, par ek baat kahu kabhi kabhi na zaroori nh hai hum humesa apne ghrwalo ki baat maane, woh bhi glt ho skte hai, and i can clearly see tune khud ko kese cut off kar lia hai sbse, khud ko itni aizyat mat de, jo tera dil karta hai woh kar, hum aksar apni responsibilties ko nibhane ke chakkar me jeena hi bhul jaate hai, mujhe pta hai meri behen aur kisi ke saath khush nh rhegi kabhi bhi nh, if you love her truly toh aur kisi chiz ke baare me mat soch, just make her yours agar woh khilaf bhi ho toh tere, apni dil ki sun,"
" you were against this relationship??" sidharth asked.
" I was but mein use aur rota hua aur jhoota hasta hua nh dekh skta hu, uski khushi ke liye kia tha lekin woh khush hi nh hai"
" thank you so much, mein ruka hua tha bcz maine Chachu se wada kia tha, lekin ab aur nh, I have to make everything right not for anyone else but for me only for my happiness"
" but ish baar rasta mushkil hoga, bhut waqt lagega manane mein"
" jo muft me mil jaye
Woh mohabbat kis kaam ki,
Maza to ushe haasil karne ke
Safar me hai"
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Jaan-e- Adaa ( complete)
Fanfiction" this relation doesn't mean anything to me" -sidharth asfandyar Ali " Talaq dede, aur ho jaye azad" -shehnaaz si...
