Levi Harris: A Guide to Middle School

Episode 11: Relationships

EPISODE 11: Relationships

    I was pissed. I couldn’t believe that she was here, with him. My head was boiling hot. She lied to me, she told me she couldn’t come with me because she was busy but truth of the matter was that she was on a date… with him! Pia noticed them as well and it became an awkward situation. I was sitting down on our table with Pia opposite me drinking her milkshake and trying to avoid my eyes. I was stuck in my seat not knowing whether to approach them or not. I would have been better off not knowing that she was cheating, I finally understood the saying ‘Where ignorance is bliss, ‘tis folly to be wise.’ I was planted to my seat for several moments on just watching them laugh about with each other, completely unaware of my presence. My mind kicked in and I stood up and walked their way with my head facing downward and my hoody on so that they could not see my face. I was a metre away from them when they noticed me, though they did not know who I was. I stood there for a few more seconds before pulling of my hoody revealing my face drenched in tears. She was stunned and Mustafa was taken aback, I stood there not knowing what to do, I opened my mouth but no words could escape me and the same for Angelina.

“Lee…” she tried to say but I interrupted.

“Eff you, eff both of you,” I said my voice was dry and harsh. Her mouth opened again and shut continuously. I walked away towards the exit of Sea Cliff when I heard her shout.

“LEE!!! WAIT!!!”

I stopped and waited for her to catch up, her footsteps became louder and louder as she came close. ‘Why am I waiting for her’ I told myself. Before I could start walking again, I felt a firm grip on my shoulder.

“Lee, it’s not what you think!”

“Then what is it? What am I supposed to think if I see my girlfriend who said she couldn’t go out with me today, having pizza with my best mate?” I asked, my voice sounding forceful.

“I understand you think I’m cheating but Levi please hear me out!” My head contemplated her words for a second; I wanted to see if she could confirm that she wasn’t cheating, I really did, I loved her.

“What then?”

“He asked me out today before you did! He said we’d go out as friends,”

“Well then why didn’t you tell me?” I asked her, trying to corner her.

“You know how you’re like. You would be extremely jealous and I didn’t want you to feel that way!”

“Well, now you’ve made me feel worse. You’ve made me feel like a bitch. Are you happy now?”

“No, I’m not!” I could hear her starting to sob.

“No, I’m not. I love. You. Lee.” She stammered making it hard for me to hear. I felt a cold thing drop on my cheek, and several more after that. It was rain. We were standing in rain.

“Don’t you think you made me a bit jealous when you told me you were going out with Pia? It hurt badly. But I trusted you,” she was sobbing loudly. I could hear her over the raindrops. I started feeling bad. It was my fault all this happened.

I turned around to face her. My eyes were puffy and my nose was a shade of red.

“I trust you.” I told her, my voice as low as a whisper. We stood there in the rain for a while. She was staring at me while I was avoiding her eyes. They would make me feel way worse for jumping to conclusions. When I decided to lift my head up, our lips were inches away from each other’s and in a typical teen romance fashion we kissed and we held our kiss for as long as we could before breaking apart.

“So, what was the point of you and Mussy’s date?” I asked.

“Well, I guess I can tell you. I’m tryna hook up him and Ahmar!” she replied. I was puzzled. Why on earth would Angie think that Ahmar and Mussy were good for each other?

“Why are you tryna hook them up?”

“Cos, Ahmar sort of likes Mussy and I wanted to see if the feeling was mutual,”

“Is it?” I asked.

“He says he doesn’t know whether he should go out with her or not!”

“I think he shouldn’t really, I mean they never talk, do they?”

    After that it was just me asking her questions about Ahmar and Mussy. That’s why I gave this episode the name ‘relationships’ cos relationships are tricky. You might find yourself deeply in one relationship then you might start having a crush on another girl, like me. I was starting to have a crush on Pia, a crush that I couldn’t stop. I just couldn’t help but admiring her. How sweet she was, how cute and beautiful she was. I saw her as a perfect girl really, someone you could depend on all the time but I loved Angie, not her, I couldn’t risk my relationship with Angie over some crush. ‘I love Angie’ I told my self ‘not her!’ I couldn’t help but notice that Ahmar and Mussy were getting closer as well, a lot closer. They would ‘chill’ together sometimes up to the point I felt like a third wheel, even worse, I felt like a fifth wheel, the one that you keep at the back of your car ‘just in case’ of a puncture. It was ticking me off. I was losing my mate. I was hardly talking to him anymore. If I wanted to tell him anything she would always be there thus restricting what I could say just incase she told anyone. It started really pissing me off when they started talking about things only him and me talked about, making me feel on the same level as Ahmar. It made me click when they started talking about me, that’s when I got really angry. That’s when all the bullshit I heard them talk about made me switch.

“Why the hell are you always here?” I asked with a pissed of manner. They gave each other a awkward look. We were in the library studying, or we were supposed to be studying until the constant chitter-chatter of Mussy and Ahmar pissed me off. We were sitting on a wooden desk next to a row of computers to our right. There was a bunch of bookshelves surrounding us.

“I’m here cos I wanna talk to Mussy,” she said. Mustafa raised a small smile.

“Yeah, but you’re always flipping here!”

“So! I wanna talk to him a lot. Are you sad cos you’re losing Mussy?”

“I’m pissed cos I can’t tell him what I want cos you’re always here! All the flipping time!”

“Sorry, but I thought you had a girlfriend? Or are you interested in men now?” That question pissed me off. She can’t start hanging around with Mussy and I and then try to diss me out.

“Eff you, if you like the guy why don’t you flipping tell him?” I said. I didn’t want to offend her but she was getting on my nerves. I was seriously pissed of. I was breathing heavily.

“Who told you that…” I interrupted her.

“Everyone knows, it’s flipping obvious. You stare at him and all of the sudden you start hanging around with him more, only and idiot wouldn’t realize!” I was an idiot. I really hurt her feelings she stood up and her eyes were watery.

“Ahmar wait I’m…” she interrupted.

“No! I’ll leave you if I’m such a big pain in the arse!”

“I didn’t mean it that way, Ahmar please I’m sorry!” I pleaded but it didn’t work. She was off. She sat next to Angelina and Angie tried to comfort her. Everyone kept on sneaking looks at me.

What had I done? I hurt someone’s feelings. She hadn’t done anything bad! I left the library with my heart full of guilt.