Taylor's Little Sister

chapter 57: again??

Ashleys POV

I started breathing heavily.
"HELP!! SOMEONE HELP!!" I cried.

Nash ran in. "what happened?"
"Tay-Tay-tay." I couldn't talk. I couldn't speak. I could barely breathe.
I fell to the floor and started crying.
"ash!!" Nash yelled and carried me in his arms.
"what happened?" he kept saying to me.

All I really remember was Hayes grabbing me from Nash's arms and sitting with me in the living room telling me everything was gonna be fine.

The boys eventually found out Taylor's heart stopped beating. Everyone was sure he wasn't dead because we checked his pulse.
But they called an ambulance to come and take him.

I couldn't breathe anymore. I was freaking out. I felt like I was in a tight space and I fell out of Hayes' arms to the floor.

"Ashley! please stop!" he begged me and tried picking me up again.
I ran to the bathroom and locked the door.

I didn't really know what I was doing in there.
I grabbed the razor. no. Ashley. stop. don't do it!! my left hand was holding my right hands wrist because I was trying to stop myself.

Hayes broke open the door.
"NO ASHLEY PLEASE STOP!!" he started crying and smacked the razor out of my hand.

He hugged me so tight and cried into my head.
All the boys besides Hayes didn't know what was happening with me which I was happy about.
I wanted them to stay with Taylor. I couldn't lose him.

"Why would you?" hayes kept saying to me.

"I didn't! I- i - i-" I couldn't talk.
"just shh." he said. "breathe please breathe."

Erica and Ainsley walked in.
"ash..." Erica said.
She came towards Hayes and I. I turned from Hayes' hug and hugged Erica. I wasn't trying to avoid Hayes, no. he saved me.

Hayes stayed hugging me. "Erica. is-is-is-is." I tried speaking.
"Ashley Ashley, breathe, breathe." she stroked my hair.

"I wanna see Taylor." I said and tried pushing past them.
They stayed hugging me.
"please please. let me see him!" I begged.
"it's better if you don't." Hayes sniffed.
"no Hayes. he's my-" I couldn't talk.
I fell the floor and hid my face there.

Ainsley and Hayes helped me up. Erica looked at me upset.

Then Montana walked in.
"come here ash." he said and hugged me.
Hayes went to see what was happening with Taylor.

The rest of my Indiana friends came in and comforted me.
Emma picked me up. she was about 6 months older then me... and taller then me.
"Ashley he's gonna be okay." They all said.

Dylan was worried as hell for me.
Emma put me down and Dylan hugged me.
"Ashley I promise he's gonna be okay."

I nodded at her. "I love you Dyl." I finally was able to talk.
"I love you too twin." she hugged me.

We let go. Erica helped me to the living room.

The ambulance took Taylor and all the boys went with them besides Hayes and Jack G. and of course the guys from Indiana.

Jack G stayed with me the whole time. so did Hayes.

"Can- I-" i tried asking Jack G if I could see Taylor.
He knew what I was gonna ask so he said, "no, Ashley. I'm sorry but no."

I hid my face in Hayes' chest as he stroked my hair.

"it's okay ash. it's better if you don't so you don't have another panic attacks." Hayes told me.