teenager romance

part 4

trigger warning!!
losing the only person that made you feel something actually destroys you, it cuts you deep and leaves a scar</3
3 months later

10:00 am
alexs pov
we happened to be in every class together, him and i
him and i.
My first love, monday was the day he asked me to be his girlfriend.
its friday.
i said yes.
yes.
i was kinda concerned when he asked me to be his girlfriend, Adam confirmed that he always had a crush on me and it makes me nervous because i was always unkind and rude to him. I always ask him why, he gives me some hints but, i will not accept a hint, i will act dumb until you say it with your chest Adam.
"_I dont know babe, i really dont, i just saw in you something, you know" Adam added
"_i dont know, babe, you are dumb as hell"
you know you're traumatized when someone actually treats you well and the whole time you think its just a joke
"_i loved you Alex, i always did and look you always ask me why i had hope in you well i did because i saw something in you i saw a future inside those eyes and i know how eyes works but i never knew about how they sparkle until i met you. they were forever in those eyes
you're too precious to me. you're so adorable, lovely and you're the most beautiful work of art in the whole universe
i love you, that means im not just here for the happy moments. it means im here for no matter what. and honestly, something keeps telling me that im going to love you forever" He replied
"_well, Adam, you have those beautiful eyes the kind you could get lost in, and i guess i did. i wish i could explain your eyes and how your voice gives me butterflies and especially how your smiles makes my heart skip a beat and everything about you.
i love you, Adam, i love you
iam sorry i was mean and evil to you at first but i have struggled with stuff from my past, everytime when you ask me why do i do this shit to my body, why do i hurt myself, i was losing my willpower to live, and its all because of him ive never felt more alone and it's terrifying thinking this is how im going to feel for the rest of my life i dont think im worth of love, and im so tired of being "myself" i hate everything about myself like the way i look, speak or act
im destroying my sanity trying to figure out how to make him love me.
_well, darling, im glad you trust me enough to open up to me about your father, but please god wouldn't give you the battles he does if he didn't think you would be strong enough to fight it. he believes in you and so do i. you can do this.
_thank you Adam, i appreciate you but, i kinda have some great news to tell you
_ARE YOU SERIOUSSSKDHKEBS??? TELL ME RIGHT NOW
_ I'm probably going to move in with my mom"
he goes silent.
he doesn't reply.
i grab his hand
"_its okay babe, weve got this okay? i know long distance relationship don't usually end up working but-
"_no" he cuts me
"_no what?
_no, weve got this. Its you and me vs the world okay? weve got this were both 16, 2 more years and we will move out, get married and spend our life together. We will make memories together, im not giving up on you.
_Im not giving up on you either, Adam. Im here, for you"
He hugs me.
I hug him back.
he kisses me.
i kiss him back
"i love you alex" he whippers
i love you more, Adam