Euphoria

On a break means breaking up

After what happened new year I had been staying back at mine with Nathan, I didn't like seeing Fezco so violent and I also don't think I could face him knowing I had kissed another man. Even it was a mistake I still let it happen.

Fezco❤️
Y/n will you please talk to me?

Elliott
Do you maybe want to come round today? I have some Xanax...

I looked between the two texts and felt so guilty. I left Fezco unanswered and unread I just couldn't face him right now.

Y/n (to Elliott)
I'll be round soon

"Nathan I'm off I'll be back later" I called through the house as I rushed to get my shoes on.

"Wait where are you going?" He asked coming out from the kitchen covered in flour.

"To see some friends" I have him a small hug before I left out the door and make my way to Elliott's house.

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"So you finally came" he smiled down at me as he answered the door. The last time I had seen him was new year night but we had text since, it just means I havent seen his face in a while so I forgot how handsome he looked. I blushed slightly as I walked through and he lead me to his room.

"It's nice" I looked around as I took a seat on his bed. He sat next to me and pulled out the pill snapping it in half and handing me one. We took them and laid back waiting for them to kick in.

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"You were made to do fentanyl and he just sat there?" Elliott asked in disbelief as I told him the story about the day Mouse made me take fentanyl.

"Yep" I sighed taking a hit of the blunt he had just light up before passing it back.

"That's so fucked up" he turned his head to look at me but I stayed looking at the ceiling. Out the corner of my eye I could still see him studying my face.

"What you looking at me like that for?" I asked still not turning my head. He put the blunt in the ashtray on his window before lying back down still looking at me. He made me nervous but in a tingly good way.

"I just like looking at you" he shrugged taking his hand and placing it on my cheek so my face now turned to look at him. Before I could stop myself I crashed my lips onto his and without any hesitation he kissed back immediately. The kiss soon turned heated and I was now on top of him as his hands roamed my body. The moment was almost perfect till my phone rang on the bedside table and I caught a glimpse of who was calling me.

Fezco❤️ is calling...

The fact that I didn't feel bad made me feel worse. I needed to talk to Fezco ASAP and atleast tell him how I'm feeling. It's not fair for this to be happening behind his back. I just need some time to figure all this out.

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I left elliotts after telling him my brother was calling probably wanting me home. I'd been there nearly all day so it didn't seem that bizarre.

Fezco❤️ is calling...

I decided that this time I'd actually pick up as I am on the way to his shop to talk.

"Hello" I answered.

"Y/n thank god I thought something happened to you. Are you ok?" He with the sound of relief in his tone of voice.

"I'm on the way to the shop now are you there?" I asked.

"Yeah come through" I ended the call and continued on till I had arrived.

I was greeted by Ash immediately as I walked through the door. "Have you came back?" He asked trying to hide his excitement. For the past year I'd been living there Ash had basically became my little brother. Very annoying at times little brother.

"Sorry Ash I'm staying with Nathan" I shook my head feeling bad that I had disappointed him. He shrugged going back to stocking shelves.

"You staying there for good?" Fez spoke up and I finally turned to look at him. I because confused when I seen Faye, the girl from the strip search drug deal sat on the counter across the shop.

"What's Faye doing here?" I asked giving her a wave which she smiled and waved back at. She was actually pretty nice.

"She's staying with me a couple days. Something to do with pushing someone off a balcony" fez shrugged as though it wasn't a big deal.

"Cool... anyways I need to talk to you" I shifted uncomfortably.

"Yeah cool what about?" He asked staying sat by the till. I was about to reply till Cal Jacobs, Nate Jacobs dad, entered the store.

"Good evening" Mr Jacobs walked through with a smug smile on his face. I swear this man gives me the creeps just knowing he fucked Jules made it worse.

"What's up man" Fez replied. I'm not 100% sure if Fez knew who he was but I don't think he did. Although I could feel the tension in the air already as Cal browsed the shelves picking up odd items as he walked past. His eyes stayed completely focused of Fez and I.

"You got any spearmint gum?" He asked walking around the back of the shelf where Fez sat.

"I don't know man the gum is right here" Fez pointed beside him. As Cal walked back round I caught a glimpse of what looked like a fun shape in the pocket wheee he held his hand. I looked over at fez as a warning as I walked around back of him pretending I'm looking for something.

"Is this your store?" Cal asked making small talk for god knows what reason. Maybe in attempt to scare Fez?

"It's a family business"

"Your parents own it?" Cal asked another question as he walked behind me and reached forward grabbing something off of the shelf in front of me. I gulped closing my eyes scared.

"You always ask this many questions man?" Fez asked and I could tell even from where I was standing now he was nervous. He didn't like the way this was going.

"Did she tell you who I am?" Cal pointed to me as I walked back around to beside Fez. He looked at me worried before turning back to Cal trying his hardest to hide the fact he was scared.

"Are you a cop?" Faye asked.

"No" Cal reached back into his pocket and I tensed up. I seen ash in the corner of my eye darting out back to get a weapon and returning seconds later. But instead of the gun Cal pulls out money placing it beside Fez. "Just a concerned father" he walks out and Fezco followed making sure he was gone.

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After a while of letting the situation diffuse I asked to talk to Fez out back. He lead me through the fridge doors and to the table where Ash normally deals drugs. I look over at him saddened that I'm actually doing this but I can't keep leading him on if I don't know if I still feel the same way.

"What's up you kinda making me nervous now" Fez took a seat in the table as I stayed standing in front of him.

"I love you and I always will have love for you but"

"Fuck" Fez mumbled under his breath. He knew what I was about to do. "Don't do it" he looked over at me with no emotion on his face.

"I'm sorry" I whispered

"Why?"

"We just need a break I need to figure things out"

"Y/n we both know a break means breaking up" he shook his head now looking down at the floor. "Is there someone else?" He asked not daring to look up.

"Fezco" I don't want to lie to his face but I didn't want to hurt him even more. He looked over at me and walked closer taking my head into his hands.

"You've been taking drugs" he looked deeply into my eyes.'I tried to look away but he already knew so it was pointless. "This is because the boy you met at the party? The one you were stood with?" He asked but I shook my head. "Fine" he mumbled letting to.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled before walking out with the tears finally brimming my eyes.