Chapter 22
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I woke up with a throbbing headache and my eyes scanned my room. The sight of Billie and that girl still fresh in my memories. I would never forget that. I couldn't. I had really loved that girl and seeing her really making it clear that it wasn't return was awful.
I was so stupid. So fucking stupid. What did I expect? That she would feel the same? That she thought I was as great as I though she was.
I was tired. Drained. I couldn't leave my bed, all I did was staring at my roof as my tears fell.
I hated her. No. I loved her. I was angry, so fucking angry. Mostly on myself. I had told myself so many times that I couldn't do this once again. I was too weak.
I broke my eyes from the roof and looked at my phone. Nothing. No missed calls or text from Billie. Nothing.
But I still had hope left and looked at my phone every other minute. But I got more and more crushed as the time went by and my home Screen was still empty.
Not even a text. Was I nothing? How could she not even send a text after she saw me walking in on them? Wow.
Once again I looked at the empty home Screen.
My cries turned into screams. My phone hit the wall and the screen broke. I picked it up again and threw it even harder. I just kept hitting it into the wall until blood dropped down from my hands.
I didn't feel the pain form my hands because everything hurt. Mostly my heart. Stupid. I shouldn't have let myself fall in love.
I fell down to the floor as I started crying again.
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Breathing you |b.e
FanfictionI was an addict but I never thought I would get addicted to you, but as soon as our eyes meet I was stuck, blinded by your beauty. I knew life would end with you. Trigger warnings Drug-, alcohol abuse, overdose, suic!de, self harm, body image
