You're the One - Part 1 || Greta Van Fleet

Chapter 63: You'll Always Have Me

"Jess.." Josh sighed, tangling his fingers in my hair. He stared up at me with dazed eyes.
"Mhm.." I said, moving in closer, leaning my forehead against his. My heart started beating faster has his hands traveled down to my neck, pulling me in closer.
"What happens now .. when the shoot is over?" He whispered, gently running his thumb over my cheek. I bit down on my lip, staring back at him.

"Josh, I.. I don't know." I sighed, feeling my cheeks burn. He held his stare on me and I felt my stomach turn again. He noticed.

"Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded.
"Y-yeah.. it's nothing. I just.. haven't felt right since the other night." His face dropped, his eyes more concerned. 
"You still feel sick?" He asked. My cheeks burned.
"It's okay, really, I just.. I guess I really just had too much." 

"This isn't looking very romantic anymore." James called out. My stomach dropped. I had completely forgotten he was still there.

"Give us a minute." Josh snapped, turning back to me.
"Have you told anyone?" He asked. I sighed, shaking my head.
"No, I'm okay, Josh. It's fine. It'll pass." I said softly. He bit down on his lip, holding his stare.

"Okay." He finally said. "But if it gets worse.. please tell me." I nodded, reaching up, gently wrapping one of my arms around his neck. His lips curved into a subtle smile.

"I think we have enough footage." James said. Josh shot him a look.
"A few more minutes." He said softly, turning back to me. I couldn't help but smile.

"Jess, I know it's gonna be like this never happened.. once we're done." He said, moving one of his hands into mine. "So, I just want to enjoy it while I can."
"Josh.."
"You said that.. you love us differently. But.. you obviously love him enough to want to be with him. There's a difference between loving someone.. and being in love with someone, Jess. And.. I know that." I bit my lip, feeling my cheeks burn. "But.. at least I'll have this." He said, forcing a smile. My heart dropped.

"And don't worry.. I meant what I said. Everything we said.. it stays between us. I won't try to ruin anything with you and Jake. But.. thank you.. for telling me. I know, all of this.. it's been a lot for you." He shrugged, looking down at our hands. "But I just want you to be happy, Jess. Come on.. we should head back. I know Jake is waiting up for you. And I'm sure he's gonna wanna hear all about it."

My heart dropped. I knew for a fact Jake wouldn't want to hear anything about this. I'm sure he'd never want to speak of it ever again after today. He was going to completely ignore the fact that this music video even existed.

"Okay." I finally sighed, moving off of his lap. He held out his hand, helping me up, moving the rest of my dress out from under me, placing the extra fabric in my hand.
"Here.. it'll be easier to walk." He said, intertwining our fingers and leading us back. 

After all this, I learned it was much better to stay silent rather than say the wrong thing and make everything that much worse. He seemed to be just as okay with the silence.

"Apparently everyone head back to the buses." James said, looking down at his phone. "So we have the other van to take us back to meet up with them." I was surprised Jake had agreed to leave. I had assumed he'd be waiting for me at the top of the hill, watching the entire time. Before we got to the van, my stomach flipped again, and I knew I couldn't hold this one down. I quickly let go of Josh's hand, running as far off as I could, hopefully out of sight. Though I guess it really didn't matter anymore. Josh had seen me far worse off than this. 

"Jess?" He called out, giving me a moment before coming over to me. He sat down close, holding back my hair, gently rubbing my back.
"I don't think this is from drinking, Jess." He said, his voice dropping. He handed me his water bottle, where I cleaned up as best as I could. My heart was beating faster. If it wasn't the worst hangover of my life, then what could it possibly be? 

And then my heart dropped. Jake. There's no way it could've been from the most recent time.. but back at his house.. in his room.. 

I couldn't bring myself to look back up at Josh.
"Jess?" He said again. I felt like I was going to be sick. This couldn't be happening. I felt my face get hot, tears coming to my eyes. I thought back to what Josh had said the other night, how this was never something Jake wanted. What was I going to do? How could I have been so stupid? 

"Jess, what is it?" He asked. I finally looked up at him, unable to hold it in anymore.
"Jess.." He said, reaching over, gently wiping my eyes. "What is-" 

He stopped himself, his eyes growing wide.
"Jess.. what is it?" He whispered, his tone dropping. But it sounded like he already knew. He shook his head, his face dropping. 

"Jess.. no.." He sighed, holding his stare on me. I bit down on my lip, trying to hold in as much as I could, but it was no use. He reached out, pulling me into a hug, holding me tightly. My subtle cries turned to sobs as I hid my face in his chest.

"I-it's gonna be okay." He said softly, gently rubbing my back. "We.. we still don't know for sure. It's gonna be okay, I promise. You're gonna be okay. We.. we'll run to the store now.. it's okay.. don't worry.. I've got you."

I finally caught my breath, forcing myself up look at him again.
"W-what am I gonna do? I.. I don't know how to.. I don't.." I felt myself start to get lightheaded again. This couldn't be happening. Not now. Not like this.

"Jake said.. he doesn't want this. What am I supposed to do? I.. I can't do this by myself, I don't even know if I want this, w-what am I supposed to do, I can't-"
Josh then quickly pulled me in to a kiss, shutting me up. My mind went blank as I sighed, almost melting into his hands as they gently caressed my face.

"Jess, I meant what I said, when I told you I would always be there for you. And that means.. this too. No matter what happens.. you'll always have me."