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At this point I'm embarrassed to even say it

141. Easy as Life- Aida (Riza)
*So much of this song sounds like what would be going through Riza's head in episode 54! Especially if you've read Delicate :'(

All I have to do is to forget how much I love him
All I have to do is put my longing to one side
Tell myself that love's an ever-changing situation
Passion would have cooled and all the magic would have died
All I have to do is to pretend I never knew him
On those very rare occasions when he steals into my heart
Better to have lost him when the ties were barely binding
Better the contempt of the familiar cannot start
Until I think about him as he was when I last touched him
And how he would have been were I to be with him today
Those very rare occasions, don't let up, they keep on coming
All I ever wanted and I'm throwing it away... it's easy, it's easy as life
Is this how the gods reward the faithful through the ages?
Forcing us to prove that all the hardest things we've done are easy, so easy
And though I'll think about him until the earth draws in around me
And though I choose to leave him for another kind of love
This is no denial, no betrayal, but redemption
Redeemed in my own eyes and in the pantheon above... it's easy, it's easy as life

142. Your Eyes Tell- BTS
Gah dang I knew from the title it was gonna be them and it was
Why are my eyes filled with tears? Hey, stay by my side and laugh
A future without you is a world without colour, filled with monochrome coldness
Even the darkness we see is so beautiful, please believe me
Looking only directly at you So you don't go away
Whatever lies in our way, look far into the distance
The place you gave me is still where my heart entrusts
Shadows of the past keep on chasing me,
But the more I try to escape and struggle, the more it follows
But I still want to hold onto it, wherever you are I'll find you, to a tomorrow of us
Even it seems to be the beginning of the end, I'll call your name
The gazing eyes are so colorful, I'll give my everything to you
Still unable to verbalize the hopeless dream in my heart
To face the past and the future how much hope is needed to reach you
It's nights like these that I keep on thinking In the city at dusk
To be loved...to love someone...
I'll become your eye (!!!) for the adventure that lies ahead
Even the darkness we see is so beautiful, please believe me
Looking only directly at you so you don't go away, the gazing eyes are so colorful
You taught me that someday the sadness will wind us together
Your eyes tell

143. Yours- Jin (BTS)
*This one's for all the pining that probably happened in part 3
A deeper day, a longer grown shadow, the sun is setting in the distance
I guess I'm wandering in the dark, am I trapped in here?
The place that is still breathing, I have to get closer to that place
Every day you seem too far away, every time you do, I tell myself
I'm waiting right here, every night I see you in my heart
Every time I do, I end up crying, when I call you in the darkness

144. The Truth Untold- BTS
*this song hits even harder after watching Aleczandxr's video essay on Roy
Full of loneliness this garden bloomed
Full of thorns I bind myself in this sand castle
What is your name, do you have a place to go
Oh could you tell me? I saw you hiding in this garden
And I know all of your warmth is real
The blue flower your hand was picking, I want to hold it but
It's my fate, don't smile to me, light on me
Because I can't get closer to you, there's no name you can call me
You know that I can't show you me give you me
I can't show you a ruined part of myself
Once again I put a mask on and go to see you, but I still want you
Bloomed in a garden of loneliness, a flower that resembles you
I wanted to give it to you after I take off this foolish mask
But I know I can't do that forever, I have to hide, because I'm a monster
I am afraid, I am shattered, I'm so afraid that you will leave me again in the end
Once again I put on a mask and go to see you
Maybe back then, a little, just this much
If I had the courage to stand before you, would everything be different now
I'm crying, that's disappeared, that's fallen, left alone in this sandcastle
Looking at this broken mask, and I still want you

145- Treacherous- Taylor Swift

Put your lips close to mine, as long as they don't touch
Out of focus, eye to eye, til the gravity's too much
And I'll do anything you say, if you say it with your hands
And I'd be smart to walk away, but you're quicksand
This slope is treacherous, this path is reckless,
This slope is treacherous, and I like it
I can't decide if it's a choice, getting swept away
I hear the sound of my own voice, asking you to stay
And all we are is skin and bone, trained to get along
Forever going with the flow, but you're friction
Two headlights shine through the sleepless night
And I will get you, and get you alone
Your name has echoed through my mind
And I just think you should, think you should know
That nothing safe is worth the drive
And I would follow you, follow you home

146. Forever Winter- Taylor Swift

He says he doesn't believe anything much he hears these days
He says, "Why fall in love, just so you can watch it go away?"
He spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be
He spends most of his flights getting pulled down by gravity
I call just checkin' up on him, he's up, 3 AM pacin'
He says, "It's not just a phase I'm in", Mm voice comes out beggin'
He seems fine most of the time, forcing smiles and neverminds
His laugh is a symphony, when the lights go out, it's hard to breathe
I pull at every thread, tryna solve the puzzles in his head
Live my life scared to death he'll decide to leave instead
I call just checkin' up on him, he's up, 5 AM wasted
Long gone, not even listening, my voice comes out screamin'
If I was standin' there in your apartment,
I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it
I'd say I love you even at your darkest, and please don't go
All this time I didn't know you were breakin' down
I'd fall to pieces on the floor if you weren't around
Too young to know it gets better, I'll be summer sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go
He says he doesn't believe anything much he hears these days
I say, "Believe in one thing, I won't go away"

147. Whatever You Do- Brandi Carlile

If I don't owe you a favor, you don't know me, I don't believe we've ever even met
If there's a God in heaven you can show me, then I guess I should admit I lost the bet
There are moments I could hold you forever
There are moments that lasted way too long
There are days when I change with the weather
To hold you in place would be wrong
I never met a morning I could get through
With nothing on my breath to hold the night
And I never said I'm sorry but I meant to, I never met a coward I don't like
There are reasons why the body stays in motion
But at the moment only demons come to mine
There are days when I could walk into the ocean
With no one else but you to leave behind
There's a road left behind me that I would rather not speak of
And a hard one ahead of me too, I love you, whatever you do
But I got a life to live too

148. Party of One- Brandi Carlile
*sobs violently*
Waiter send this to the table, the party of one
The only other lonely soul in this place
And so you're finishing up your coffee, but then where you're gonna run?
Where'd you get that look on your face?
You should always let the sun go down on your anger
Let it burn you to sleep, ring it closer to danger
To surrender and retreat, sing your sad soul to sleep
I loved you the first time I saw you, and you know I love you still
But I am tired, and I am yours
Don't even think about your freedom, or taking that flight
Or going back upon your promise after fighting for the right
Because your eggshells and your right statements, and your weaponized words
Are paper tigers now
Oh your constant overthinking and your secretive drinking
Are making you more and more alone
And, you can slam the door behind you, it ain't ever gonna close
Because when you're home, you're already home
I am tired, I am tired, I don't wanna go home anymore
I don't wanna throw stones anymore, I don't wanna take part in the war
I don't wanna be right anymore, I don't wanna fight anymore
I'm not taking your side anymore, I am tired, I am not my own
And I am leaving, I am tired, and I'm coming home
'Cause I am yours