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My alarm goes off and I groan inwardly. I look over to my right and move my arm from around lani's waist me and shut it off.

Turning back over I kiss her cheek and slowly get up, so I don't wake her up. It's 5 right now and she has to be to work at 7 for a meeting about another show. I'll just make her breakfast before she wakes up.

Brushing my teeth, I head downstairs and pull out eggs, bread, bacon, grapes and strawberries.

Toast, bacon, eggs and fruit it is.

After I'm done, I hear soft steps coming down the stairs and look up.

" hi " She rubs her eyes and crosses her hands behind her back. I mean seriously? She's fucking beautiful. I smile and nod my head to tel her to come.

" hey baby " she tries to hide her smile but fails poorly at it.

" shut up, what are u making? " She walks around towards the table and sits on the stool. Grabbing an apple she begins to put it towards her mouth but I stop her before she can eat it.

" HEY! " she yells at me. I laugh and put the apple back in the bowl.

" Nope. Before you go to work I want you to actually eat something.. " She starts to protest but I shake my head and bring the plate of food in front of her.

I tilt my head to the side and give her a smile, " please? "

She thinks about it for a moment and digs in. Looking up at me she grins and shakes her head, " damn your still good at this. It's delicious Silas. Thank you " I smile and she continues eating.

A couple minutes later we're both done and she runs upstairs to grab her stuff so I can drive her home. I hear footsteps and kalani comes down and she looks up at me.

" I'm just gonna take a um, a Uber, so u won't go out of your way. " I look at her confusingly with her sudden change of demeanor.

" No it's fine, I could hone- "

She waved her hand and outs in her coat, " it's fine Silas. I'll see you around " Before she could walk out the door I grab her forearm and make her look at me.

" Lani.. " I see her eyes water and she looks away. What the fuck did I do? I thought yesterday was perfect. I thought we made up.

" What? " she snaps. Taking aback by her tone I let go of her arm and stare at her.

" Are we not gonna talk about last night? You're just gonna leave after we had sex? "

I did everything I said I was going to do? I thought I played my parts right. How did I fuck this up. Maybe I rushed into the sex. I don't regret any of it, but at this moment it's looking like she does.

" Meaningless sex. What's there to even walk about? We just needed a release, so don't take it to heart. " And with that she wiped her eyes and left out, slamming the door behind her.

Kalani

( 3 hours earlier )

After I finished eating, I ran upstairs to get my clothes and slip them on. Looking around I look for my phone but I can't remember where I put it.

Looking under the covers I look and I still can't find it. I search around the room but I hear a pang coming from the dresser. Maybe that's my phone.

Going over, I look and it's Silas's phone.

Riley - hey are you still coming today?

Riley - I know u want more. Come over, I miss you.

Riley? Who the hell is Riley?

Opening the phone- which by the way doesn't even have a password- I look through the messages.

Tuesday at 7:16

Riley - Hey babe where are you? (7:16 pm)

- I'm on my way (7:19 pm)

Riley - okay let me know when your outside (7:19 pm)

Wednesday at (9:13 pm)

Riley - Are we still going out? (9:13 pm)

- I mean do we still have too? (9:16 pm)

Riley - Yes. I want to spend time with you, and I want you to meet my father. (9:17 pm)

- okay whatver. I'll let you know when I'm on my way. (9:17 pm)

Riley - alright babe. Love you. (9:18 pm)

- yeah, love u too. (9:27 pm)

Love u too..

Seriously? Can I be this fucking dumb. All that sweet shit he told me wasn't true. He slept with me last night... He has a fucking girlfriend.

Bitch I told u

Oh fuck off subconscious. Shit now I'm crying. Fuck why do I always cry.

Maybe because he told u he loved you, after 6 six year of not seeing eachother and you coming to find out he lied to you.

Yeah.. that. Wiping my tears, I clear my throat and call my phone, and hear it next to his closet. How the fuck did that get there?

Getting it, i unlock his phone once more and leave the messages on display, leaving it on the bed. Beofre walking out, I call Uber and walk down the stairs.

Get your shit together kalani. Now.

Present day prior

( 3 hours later )

Getting up from my desk, I walk towards the break room and grab a coffee, also hearing my phone ringing from the opposite side of me. Looking down at it messages ping back and fourth.

Si - Kalani I'm sorry please text me back (8:24 am)

Si - Just call me okay? (8:32 am)

Si - I can explain. It's not want it looks like (8:37 am)

Si - please? (8:42 am)

More messages flow in and 26 missed calls as notifications pop up. I turn off my ringer, put him on silent and shut my phone off. Taking a deep breath I grab my coffee and head back to my office.

Never making the same mistake again. How the fuck could I be so stupid to forgive him that fast? Honestly. How. I should've fucking stopped when he first told me he loved me. Utter bullshit. We rushed this.

We rushed the forgiving. I barely know him come to think about it.

I didn't ask him his favorite fucking color. How he's been over these past couple of years. I didn't ask how the business was going. I was so fucking stuck in my own head I didn't get a chance to forgive him. I fell for his shit once again and I won't let it happen anymore.

It cant.

Because I just won't see him again.

It's been years. 6. He has his own life as it seems and it's just time to let some things go.

Starting with him.

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