Ang jowa kong balikbayan

I'm here

It was a tiring day for me.

If it's not because of them I will not get myself involved in this kind of events.

Sobrang aga naming gumising kanina para makapaghanda sa talk na sinasabi nung pageant organizer sa'min yesterday.

As usual I didn't get any attention from her. Well kinaka-usap nya naman ako minsan but it's always about the pageant. I'm not gonna lie, nasasaktan ako.

I know I deserve this kind of treatment from her.

Pero I didn't know na it's going to be this painful. But I have to endure it if I want us to go back the way we used to be, not as lovers but as friends. Kahit yun nalang.

Gi did my hair and make-up and si Ning naman kay Kai.

Pinigilan ko pa kanina si Gi since kaya ko naman but she argued kaya wala na akong nagawa.

Kai even joked that I didn't need such make-ups kasi I have the looks already raw. Kahit naman raw walang make-up I would stand out.

I heard Winter scoffed.

Hindi ba sya agree sa sinabi ni Kai?

It bothered me at some point.

I must say na magaling ang organizer ng event na to.

We're currently staying sa parang isang camp sight, na sobrang ganda.

It makes me think kung ilang budget ang inilaan nila para sa said pageant na to.

Well, the talk went well naman. The topic was more on environmental campaign which is theme rin ng pageant na to.

So far nagugustuhan ko na rin sya since I love plants.

We had a short break after the talk before kami mag proceed sa tree planting na gagawin sa gubat sa likod nitong sight.

Habang nagpapahinga kami i noticed na may iilang dumadaan lagi sa pwesto namin. Mostly mga lalake. They're practically staring at me everytime na madadaan sila. I'm not happy with that. It went on hanggang sa hindi nalang ako ang tinitignan nila maging sila Gi ay di na rin nakaligtas.

My annoyance grew more when they stared at Winter. They're literally checking her out. It makes me want to hide her sa loob ng tent so that no one can see her.

Pero wala akong karapatan.

We're not..not a thing anymore.

Hindi na nawala ang lungkot ko after that realization.

Hindi na rin ako makapag focus sa pagtatanim.

Hanggang sa matapos kami ay down parin ang mood ko so I decided to take a walk.

I keep on thinking about her.

Do I still have a chance?

I keep on trying everyday pero parang nababaliwa lang lahat ng effort ko.

That Yoon.

May namamagitan ba sa kanila ni Winter?

It pained me just by thinking about it.

I was so busy kaka-isip at hindi na namalayan ang oras.

It's almost five.