JJs POV
"What's with the quotations?" She sighs
"Mom I know Maya is alive, I just seen her not even a week ago," I say and this time her face changes, a kind of surprise. Surprise that I figured it out or she didn't know in the first place
"Jennifer that's enough" she snaps
"No mom it's not," I say
"My sister is alive, 22 fucking years went by with me thinking it was my fault" I defend myself
"You didn't see her, you don't know" she says
"Mom! Do you remember that night?" I ask her
"Of course I do" she says
Flashback
My mom is at work once again and I was home with Maya, Maya is my 3 year old sister. My parents waited 11 years to have another kid, and my dad died 2 years later, I was only 13. Maya only 2.
Maya didn't understand I don't think, she just stopped asking for dad one day. Like she forgot about him. After he died it was only the three of us, Maya, mom and I
Dads death really affected mom, she started going Out and drinking or working late
One night Maya got sick, and I was home alone with her. I tried everything, cuddles, a cool bath, medicine and nothing worked. All she wanted was her mom, I was 14 now, and she was 3. 3 year olds crave their mother
I called my mom and she came home, she was mad but she sat with Maya until she fell asleep, and then left again,
I stayed in mayas room that night, well most of the night, she woke up at 11 and I held her against me and she fell asleep
"I love you Maya, sissy loves you" I say soothingly
"Love you" she says and I smile, a few moments later she was asleep, her blonde hair falling down her back
I smile and put her in bed, making sure the monitor was on and I went down the hall to my room.
It was almost midnight when I got into bed and I was so tired
I fell asleep instantly
Around 3 I woke up again to my mom yelling and flashing red lights out of my window
I jumped up quick and ran out of my room,
My mom was at the door and crying
"Mom?! Mom!? What's going on?" I ask frantically
"It's Maya, something happened. I have to go" she says and leaves me alone in the house and gets into the back of the ambulance
I paced the living room for hours. My mom didn't come home until 7 hours later
I seen her car pull up and I ran out to see Maya
"Mom? Where's Maya?" I ask looking into the back of the car but her face was emotionless
"Mom?" I ask
"Mom!? Where's Maya!" I ask, feeling myself getting teared up
"She's gone" is all she says and walked into the house
"What do you mean she is gone? She was fine, her fever was gone!" I say frantically, I made sure it was gone before I left her
"She's dead Jenny, Maya is dead" she says and I break down on the floor crying, my little sister, the person who tested me the most but also made me smile was gone
My mother just left me alone on the floor. She blames me. I know. She does. She has every right too, it's my fault. It's my fault my baby sister is gone
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Present Day
"Of course I do" she says
"You left me alone in the middle of the floor, as I cried about Maya." I say and she nods
"It was hard for me to Jenny" she sighs
"But Maya didn't die. And you knew that" I say raising my voice a little
"You better watch your tone with me, I am still your mother" she says and I roll my eyes
"Listen, I didn't come here to fight. I just came to find out what happens to Maya. You can tell us here. Or we can transport you to the station and get it on record" I say
"The station?" Emily whispers and I shrug her off
"Jenny just drop it" she sighs
"What happens to her?" I ask and Emily squeezes my hand and I instantly calm down
"Dammit Jennifer enough!" She yells and I jump back a little, definitely not expecting that reaction and I know Emily thought the same when she out her hand on my lower back
"Do you really want to know what happened?" She ask and I don't respond
"I gave her away, I couldn't do it anymore. I had to constantly look after her. When I came home she wasn't dead, she went with a couple and left" she tells us
"What- how? Why?" I ask, tears coming to my eyes
"I had a friend at the hospital, agreed to forge a death certificate. The couple promised to take her far away and never come back. I just couldn't raise her." She says and I fall back into Emily. I needed to get out of there
"She had a funeral" i say
"People who die have a funeral, I had to keep it believable" she says
"22 years you let me believe I killed her." I say, my voice shaking
"Why would you even think that?" She ask
"You told me I did!" I yelled and Emily wraps her arms around me
" I did not" she says and I nod into Emily chest
"You- you- said that. If I hadn't fallen asleep she hold be alive" I say
"Well she is alive. You were never meant to find out" she says and I stand up walking out of the house with Emily.
I took a few seconds to get myself together and took out my phone
"Pick her up, no questions asked.... Just holding..... I got 48 hours..... thank you, I owe you" I say into the phone
"Who was that?" Emily ask
"Agent LaMontagne, he is coming to get my mother and putting her in holding until I figure out what I want to do" I explain
"Jayje" she sighs
"I'm fine, I just need to go and hold my baby" I say and she nods as we get into the car and drive back to the hotel
I couldn't talk, I don't know what's happening. My entire life a lie
When we got to the hotel she took my hand and I leaned into her as we got into the elevator and up to our room
When we walked into the room Mara looked over at me and smiled
"JJ!" She giggles and runs to me and I pick her up, wrapping my arms around her as tight as possible without hurting her
"Why are you sad?" She ask
"I'm not sad, I just love you sweet girl" I smile and hold her and she lays her head on my shoulder and I sit on the bed with her
"Did you have fun with Penelope?" I ask
"Yea she showed me how to play games, but I missed you so much" she says using her arms to show how much
"I'm back sweetheart, And I missed you so much" I say and rock her in my arms with me
Today had been so emotionally draining, I am just so glad to have her little body curled up on top of me now
Til next time❤️
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