SILENT TEARS || JK

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"Do you miss him?"

I asked the little squirrel who is staying far from me.

Everyday after my work I used to go there.

Where I first met him.

Where he saved me.

Where I started to live.

Where he gave me a life to live.

"I wish you can talk. So we both can talk with each other"

The baby squirrel which Jungkook save was now a big squirrel. It used to stay around this place and his leg has healed completely just as Jungkook told.

Reminding me that Jungkook was long gone.

Whenever I come here I would just stare at the busy crowded streets below me hopelessly and go. It has been a part of my daily schedule to come here.

This was the only place where Jungkook's memories stayed.

I would sit on the bench which we both used to sat and talk for hours a long ago. I keep reminding all the days we passed together.

As each others comfort.

Friends.

And even as lovers.

I stared at the beautiful night sky above me. It was filled with beautiful lanterns with people's wishings.

"Where are you Jungkook?"

I whispered to myself.

I felt my cheeks getting wet telling me that I'm crying again.

"How much more time you want?"

I asked hopelessly staring at the night sky.

"Come back"

With those words I broke down into tears.

I hugged my legs and rested my head on my knees and cried loudly.

I cried for a long time.

As I used to do once.

But this felt so different.

Back then after he came I slowly started to feel less fear to suffer.

To cry.

To be in pain.

Because he was there with me.

He was there to comfort me.

To tell me it ok to feel weak.

To tell me he loves me.

He was there to give me a big tight hug and hold me till I get better.

But today he is not with me. The person I wanted to be with me forever.

Now I'm afraid to suffer.

To cry.

To be in pain.

Again after a long time.

Because I know he is no longer there with me.