Arranged Marriage • Joshua ✓

Arranged Marriage || 50

[ - sophia - ]

I went home and luckily it wasn't as late as it usually is. I guess work went smoothly today and I really can't wait to take a rest. Joshua's also home already so I'm guessing he's probably taking a rest at the moment or cooking dinner.

I went to check the kitchen and he wasn't there so I'm guessing he's resting in his room. I headed to mine to take a bath and rest afterwards. Besides, I'm not sleeping here tonight.

I'm quite nervous about tonight though. I mean... I'm still scared, but it had almost been half a year ever since we've gotten married and we've only slept together TWICE. No matter what, I gotta face my fear. I'm not going to be able to overcome it if I kept on backing out.

After I've finished taking a bath, I laid down on my bed, playing on my phone. Been a while ever since I'm able to relax. I wonder if that extra song we're preparing now would get any attention. I'm not that confident with something that I'm doing. Soonie's popular and I'm afraid that song might receive negative reviews.

Jihoon and Hansol told me to stop worrying about that, but how exactly am I going to do that ? I'm a bit self-conscious with my own skills. After all, it has been a long time.

I let out of a sigh as I looked at the time

"6.30 PM..." I uttered

I'm a bit sleepy so I guess I'd take a nap for a bit. I'm tired from working a lot earlier and it's hard to get some rest at work. Gonna use up this free time that I'm having now to rest well.

I set an alarm just in case I might not wake up.

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The alarm went off which caused me to wake up. I picked up my phone to see that it's already 7.30 PM. I should go downstairs for dinner soon.

I stretched my arms upwards as I got off of my bed and went to the makeup table to brush my hair like I'd usually do. I did some light stretching and went to the living room after switching off the lights in my room

"Good evening dear" I greeted Joshua whom was sitting down on the couch

"Oh, good evening honey. Did you rest well ?" he asked

"Yes, I did. What about you ?? Were you able to rest ??" I asked as I sat down beside him

"Luckily I was able to" said Joshua with a smile

"How was work ?" I asked

"Today's a bit free for me. I didn't have any meetings today" Joshua replied joyfully

"That's a relief" I responded

"What about you ? How's it going with the song you're working on ?" he asked

"It was going well. Jihoon and Hansol are really good with their work so I didn't really have to worry much if I have a problem" I replied to him as I rested my head on top of his shoulder

"That's good to hear. You're not stressed right ?" He asked

"I'm a little bit stressed though" I responded as I closed my eyes

"Eh ? Why is that ?" he asked me

"I'm not confident enough with my work. I don't think it'd be a great release" I let out of a sigh

"Awww don't think about that will ya ?? I'm sure it'll sound good. Plus, it's your first time producing something officially right ?" said Joshua

"We learn from mistakes so don't worry much. I'm sure it's not that bad either so have confidence okay ? I'm rooting for you" he reassured me

"Thank you" I couldn't help but smile

"You're always welcome honey" he rested his head on mine

We talked more for like an hour or so. We head to the dining room at around 8.35 PM to eat dinner. We did continue our conversation there but we kept it minimally like we'd always do.

We spent our time together afterwards in the living room. Well, basically doing our daily routine.

I felt relaxed and happy for sure. I also should stop having any suspicion towards him and just focus on the present. I trust him and I'm sure he trusts me. Well... That's what I hope.

Time passes by and it's getting late so we headed to his room after switching off all of the electricity downstairs and the door locks. I laid down on his bed and he closed the door.

"Sophia, is it alright if I ask you a question ?" Joshua asked

"Oh ? Sure. Ask away" I responded as I sat up as it is rude to keep on laying down.

"You're... Not having an affair right ??" he asked which kind of surprised me. I mean, it's not wrong to ask, everyone could be scared if their partner's going to cheat on them

"Eh ??? Why should I do that ??? Wouldn't that call me a hypocrite ???" I tilted my head

"I mean, I've been cheated on a lot and I genuinely hates it. So why should I become someone that I hate ?" I said to him

He was unconvinced by that though. Again, I don't blame him.

"But it's understandable of you to ask that question to me. It's not easy to trust someone. Especially when you know that I still have feelings towards Jihoon. But please do know that, I will never cheat on you. You're already perfect for me and I don't need anyone else to replace you" I added as I smiled at him. I really hope he'd be convinced.

He let out of a sigh and smiled back

"Maybe there really is nothing to worry about. You're an honest and someone perfect for me. I shouldn't have my doubts in the first place" he chuckled

"Should've listened to Jeonghan" he added as he laughed softly

"That's normal Shua. Besides, you've been cheated on not that long before we started getting close like this right ?? It's normal to be overprotective and having doubts. We're married after all" I said as I laid down

"Though, you can trust me. Have any of your friends talked bad about me ? I don't think they had. Plus, if you're still doubtful about it, ask Jihoon yourself then. I'm pretty sure you trusts him a lot" I added as I closed my eyes

"I don't think I'd have to" said Joshua as he laid down beside me

"If my wife is telling me that she's not cheating, I can trust her. Besides, there's no proof that you're cheating anyways so I have nothing to worry about" he kissed my cheek

"Let's just forget we had this conversation in the first place" he chuckled

"As you wish my dear" I said as I kissed his cheek afterwards

"Goodnight" both of us wished for each other and head to bed.