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Each time when we run a background check on the employees of the company, they have a clean record, nothing's wrong with them. It leads us to think that they may be a front or fake identity.I lean back on my chair and take a break. There's so much going on and half of the day is not even gone yet. I decided to call Natalie but she didn't answer her phone. I ended up texting her instead.
You:Are you free?You don't have to think too much about yesterday.I'm fine with being just friends.Are we even friends?
No reply... Is she avoiding me? So fast? Too fast?
I try to get back to work again but I wasn't concentrating. I let out a heavy sigh before taking my car keys and drove off. I walk into the cemetery and the caretaker here knows that I'm here every year. I sit in front of her grave, not sure what I am feeling right now.
"Hey, sis... they gave me the file today." I paused. "I know they probably want me back to settle this and you would be against it. But, for the whole 7 years, I have felt nothing. I am not even sure if I am capable of crying anymore." I whispered softly.
After putting up a strong front for 7 years, I kind of forget how to put it down. It is stuck up there, rusty at the hinge from not moving it for a long time.
I sat there quietly for a few hours before leaving. "Bye, see you soon."
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I flop onto my bed after taking my sleeping pill, it's like my lifeline now. I haven't been sleeping well the past few days but that's not new.
I am transported back to the day my sister died. I was doing a mission for the company. With my gun raised, clearing each room as I proceeded, I was met with a horrifying scene. My sister was hanging from her wrist, unconscious and a guard swinging a bat at her.
"STOP!" I took a shoot at the guy and the rest raised their gun at me. "Y/S/N, wake up!" I pointed my gun at each of them.
"She's not going to wake up." A guy emerged from the shadows.
"Shut up! I'm not talking to you." I gripped my gun tighter, not moving from my position. They inched forwards and I am outnumbered, but I am not going down without a fight. I take out as many as I can before sliding away from their shots, constantly moving making it difficult for them. One of them managed to shoot my shoulder and I turned around to kill him. I picked up the bat lying on the ground as I ran out of bullets and started swinging around like a madman. There were only a handful of people left so I trash the last of them before releasing my sister.
I held her in my arms as I tried shaking her awake. "Wake up, wake up. This is not funny. Now!" I tried to feel her pulse but I don't know if I felt it or if I was shaking too much.
I was screaming at the top of my lungs as tears fell down my cheeks. I could also feel myself passing out due to the shots I received.
"Y/N!" Was the last thing I heard before I blacked out. Backup finally arrived, but they were far too late. Too late.
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I was whimpering in my sleep. I clenched my jaw as the nightmare played in my dreams. I breathed heavily but air was not getting into my lungs. My chest feels constricted as I clench onto my pillow. I finally let out a gasp and breathe in the cold air as I wipe my sweat from my forehead.
I am the type of person who doesn't open their mouth while having a nightmare. Some noise still escapes from me but it's soft. It really reduces the amount of oxygen I get. I even wonder if I am going to pass out in my sleep one day.
I push myself up and rest my head on the headboard. It's only 4.53am and it's still dark outside. I take my tablet from the bedside table and go through the file again. Taking note of the names and companies so that if I ever encounter them, I'll be more prepared. I still have to make the decision about returning to the company or not.
I can't remember when was the last time I cried. The only time I came close to crying was for Natasha, and even then, it only managed to wet my eyes, tears did not really fall.
I guess over the years, my heart turn into steel so people can't disappoint me. I always push my feelings away.Arghhh, the mind is all over the place. Sorry for the weird confession.
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Double Life | Natasha Romanoff
FanfictionThe lady who introduced herself Natalie Rushman, was not who she said she was. But neither were you. Both of you have things to hide from each other. Things that everyone prefer to stay hidden. When will the both of you figure out each other's true...