Dangerous Love (Love Series #10)

28 - DANGEROUS LOVE

Adam Wyatt's POV

Gabing-gabi na sa oras na ito. Tanging liwanag ng buwan na lang ang nagbibigay liwanag dito sa pwesto namin kung saan kami nagdate. Kaysa naman sa bar, dito kami nagtungo dala-dala ang alak na inumin namin. Nilingon ko siya na ngayon ay madami ng naiinom. Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako. Dahil dun, hindi ko magawang uminom dahil kapag nalasing kaming parehas, baka hindi ko siya maasikaso.

Nang maubos ang isang bote na hawak niya ay kumuha na naman siya ng panibago. Marahas na lang akong napahinga at kinuha yun sa kaniya bago pa man siya makainom. Dun ay nilingon niya ako habang nagtatanong ang mata.

“Stop drinking anymore. Tatlong bote na ang naubos mo at hindi man lang kita napigilan.” sabi ko sa kaniya.

Dun ay kinunotan niya ako ng noo bago mapaklang natawa. “Boss, may I remind you that I was the one who wants to drink, so I will drink as much as I want. Akin na nga yan.” sabi niya at kinuha sakin ang bote.

Binuksan niya yun at uminom na naman siya. The first time I saw her drink a lot was on her graduation day, the second time was on Hong Kong, and maybe this will be the third time. She's even drinking a hard drinks.

Nakatitig lamang ako sa kaniya. Of course, at the time like this, there is a problem that sometimes, drinking beer is a solution.

“Baby girl...” tawag ko sa kaniya.

“Yes, boyfriend?” tugon niya sakin.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at yumakap mula dito sa likuran niya. Ramdam kong natigilan siya. Marahan akong huminga habang pinaparamdam sa kaniya ang yakap ko.

“I know you're having a bad time these days.. that's why you asked for drink.” I said.

Ilang segundo ang lumipas bago siya nagsalita. “I'm really having a hard time. I'm so frustrated. I'm so stress that I want to release it by drinking and making myself wasted. And I hope that tomorrow is better than now.” sabi niya at uminom ulit.

Nakaramdam na lamang ako ng bigat sa dibdib ko dahil dun. “I'm sorry...” I said.

Napabuntong hininga siya. “I thought I have to leave you even I don't want to. I thought I need to set you free. Pero ayoko...” her voice cracks. “I was afraid yesterday, Adam. I was afraid of losing you because I thought he's really your child. But other than that, I was afraid that Andrea can really steal you from me. The way she kissed you earlier, I felt doomed and it's like my chest is stabbing for a pieces. Even though you're mine, it's not that you are really mine. Of course, you owned yourself and you are only the one who can decide for yourself. Natatakot talaga ako, Adam. I know how dangerous love is... But I only felt it when you became my boyfriend...” she said while crying.

Mas napayakap na lamang ako sa kaniya at hindi makapagsalita. She's having a hard time because of me, because of my past.

“Why love is so dangerous? But no matter how dangerous it is, someone will still risk. And that someone is a kind of me.” sabi niya at mapaklang natawa. “I love you so much, Adam Wyatt Brown. I don't care how dangerous your love is... I just can't help but to feel scared at the time like this..” sabi niya sakin.

Kumalas ako ng pagkakayakap sa kaniya at hinarap siya paharap sakin. Hinawakan ko ang pisngi niya at pinunasan ang mga luha niya. Para siyang bata na umiiyak ngayon sa totoo lang. She keeps sobbing... Matiim ko siyang tinignan.

“I'm sorry. I know I was also giving you a hard time. I can feel that my past is still bothering you. I'm sorry for making you feel scared, baby girl. But trust me, I love you. It's true and I don't think I can still smile wider than ever, can live like this, if we're not together. If you're not with me and not even loving me, I don't think I could be the better version of myself.... Don't be scared anymore. I love you. I will prove that to you everyday. Trust me, baby...” I said to her.