March 4, 2021
So a few people asked me why I'm single. 😮😱
They kept suggesting me names of guys I should date so I don't have to be alone.
But I dont want to.
Not because I'm different and there's something wrong with me, but because I just don't want to. I can't just choose someone and start dating just because I'm lonely, or because I need someone to hold me back everytime I fall, or because I need to avoid an issue and divert it into something else. I just can't. I know how it would end up. I tried it. I've been there and look where it got me now. It would ruin both of us, miserably.
I hope they would all understand that some people don't need to find someone else to love. They just need to find themselves over and over again. Like me. I'd break and fall looking for myself. I'd find it, then I'd lose it again, and this is how my life works. In the process, I changed, I learned things, and I grew. I don't go out there forcing myself to look for that one person who can complete me. I'm already complete. And in times when I'm not, there won't be anyone who can complete me but myself. If someone is truly meant for me, he would be there, not changing anything in my life but bringing out the best of me instead. I would know for sure if he's already around. But for now, there's just me. And I'm truly fine with that.
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