A thousand Sunset with Denise

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ATA: anong sagot sa 15?— C girl.

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After a months living with Denise, I feel betrayed with my feelings. Sino nga ba ang hindi maiinlove sa ganitong klase ng babae? She's so kind and pure. But years living with this fake truth is sucks. I can't let Denise fall for me if she doesn't know who I really am.

She thought that I was Ivan, that I was my twin; her first love... and her bestfriend. We need to pretend that I am the one who died, because she forget about the accident. We don't even tell to her what is really happening. We can't just deal with the fact that Ivan gave his heart for Denise.

They love each other... I love Denise too but she can't see me. Because everytime she saw me, she only see my twin. Maybe because we're alike. All of them only see how Ivan's go, unlike me... even I have more achievements than Ivan, Ivan gets more recognition.

When I felt that Denise is falling for me—not because I'm Ivon but because she thought that I am Ivan—I felt so scared. There's a lot of what if's in my mind. What if she learned about that I am not Ivan? She might cursed me to death.

"Bro, I can't lose her..." I told Justin.

"Even you can't, you're losing her slowly because this is all fake. Tell her everything or silently go with the flow." Payo naman nito sa akin. Hindi ko alam pero ang tanga kong sinunod ang kaibigan ko.

Nagpanggap ako na nakabuntis ng ibang babae kahit na ang totoo ay hindi naman. I just can't take it that I'm lying to Denise. She's so pure, she doesn't deserve this kind of treatment.

"Bro, unfair. Nagmomove on ako, bakit ako ang magiging abogado mo?" Tanong ko rito. Parang sira kasi, nakadisgrasya tapos kailangan damay ako.

"If you can't lose Denise, I can't lose my future child too." Matigas na sambit nito.

"E, bakit kasi hindi mo nalang sundin ang gusto ng kabilang panig?" Tanong ko rito.

"Remember the girl who left my brother just because of his bestfriend?" He asked me. Wait, is she that girl? "That woman is the sister of that girl. I can't live with that woman everytime I remember how my brother suffers because of love." Paliwanag naman nito.

"You have choice naman e. Hindi naman kailangan na sa'yo mismo titira ang bata tapos ilalayo mo pa sa nanay." I told him.

"Hindi mo naman ako naiintindihan e. Tyaka paano kung hindi talaga sa'kin 'yung bata? Bro, that woman is a whore. I mean, I'm her first pero she's easily to give up her flower." Pagrereklamo pa nito. Gusto ko s'yang batukan, parang gago.

When we talk to Denise, she's fiercer now. Nakakatakot ang Denise na kausap namin ngayon. Parang hindi na s'ya 'yung Denise na sobrang soft kung tignan. Ngayon ay parang bagay na bagay na s'ya sa korte. In the end of the day, natalo kami ni Denise. We can't just take another angle of the story. Dahil una palang, kami na ang mali.

"Bro, bakit ang malas sa'kin ni tadhana?" He asked me. I asked the same question though. This week, Denise was engaged to the man she love. Tapos umalis pa na parang bula sila Sam kaya para kaming sira na pabalik balik sa club para uminom.

"Girls, grabe nakakatakot lahat ng babae. Parang hawak ka nila palagi sa leeg." Pagrereklamo pa nito. Totoo naman, nakakatakot ang mga babae. Mahirap silang kalabanin, parang laging may pangkalaban sa lahat ng sasabihin mo. Parang sinabi mo lang ay cheese tapos bigla nalang silang magbibigay ng facts hanggang sa wala ka nang masabi at magso-sorry ka nalang.

"Cheers to our broken hearts!" Pagsigaw naming dalawa.

After that we both ended up going to the hospital because of our liver.  Grabe ang goals naming mag bestfriend. Goals sa lovelife, goals sa sakit, goals din sa studies.

"Mukhang tatanda tayong binata ah," pagbibiro ko rito. "Tayo nalang kaya?" Dagdag ko pa.

"Gago," natatawang sambit nito.

We both made a name, at least, 'yung mga babaeng minahal namin magsisisi na hindi kami ang pinili dahil sobrang yaman na namin. Though, mas mayaman pa rin naman sa'min si Denise. Unfair ng buhay.

When I drove home, I saw my three dogs. Masaya na ako kahit aso nalang ang aalagaan ko. Kahit hindi na ako magkaanak. Wala rin naman e, if this woman is not Denise, then bahala na. Bahala na 'yung babaeng ibibigay sa akin na maghanap ng iba dahil wala akong pipiliing iba kung hindi si Denise lang.

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