A thousand Sunset with Denise

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GTKTA: I'm a writer since 2016, pero iba ibang acc.

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"Baby, you want here?" I ask my daughter. "Because you know, we can go back to Japan or we can also go to other countries," I smiled at her.

"Mom, even I don't like here. I need to be here. I know that my father isn't like me, but at least, no one likes me at all besides you. So I can't go anywhere. At least you like me and I like myself. Besides, I'm your model right? I'm still good, I don't want to live without my father." I smiled at her. This things, is came from me, I know.

"Mom, daddy wants to have me as their guest in their house but I declined it. I know, you won't agree too because of tita Natasha. Btw, ba-bye! I'm going to school na!" Nakangiting sabi nito. Our driver drive her to school.

Simula nang araw na magkasakitan kami ni Natasha ay hindi na kami nag-usap ni Jiro. Hindi naman n'ya talaga ako kinakausap e. Itinago ko nalang ang wedding ring namin. At least, may remembrance ako kung paano n'ya ako minahal noon.

Kapag pasok ni Roline sa school ay nag-uumpisa na ang araw ko. Check for the products and papers tapos wala na. Tambay nalang sa bahay, minsan ay sa chicken wings restaurant nila Sam. I can't go to Merlyn muna because of some chaotic things I can't understand with her.

Ngayong araw ay wala naman akong gagawin kaya naisipan ko nalang magbake ng kung ano para maipakain kila Sam. Bored na bored na ata ako sa buhay ko.

Nang matapos ako sa pagbibake ng blueberry cookies with a twist ko ay dumiretsyo ako kila Sam. Wala na si Jasmine kaya s'ya nalang mag-isa ang nandito sa bahay nila.

"Nakakaloka pala talaga kapag ikaw mismo 'yung nandito para maghandle! Bakit kasi nagboyfriend ang kapatid ko e!" Stress na stress na sambit nito.

"'Wag ka ngang nega. Ikaw nga nabuntis ng hindi mo naman jowa e!" Natatawang sabi ko.

"Pasmado bunganga mo ha! Gusto mong pasabugin ko 'yan?" Nagbibirong sabi nito. I helped her with her things. Tapos we go to mall for a shopping. Stress na stress kasi ang bruha. I brought some things Roline likes.

"Ate Faith!" Napalingon kaming dalawa ni Sam sa babaeng tumawag sa'kin. Nakita ko si Jayra na hingal na hingal.

"Oh, anong nangyari sa'yo?" Tanong ko rito.

"I saw my husband and his mistress. Wala lang, I made a scene and my husband is really angry. I mean, I don't care." Mataray na sambit nito. Noong una ay ayos sila ng asawa n'ya, then Ira came into their lives, her husband started to cheat on her. Pero wala s'yang pake, ang mahalaga kahit awayin n'ya 'to, hindi s'ya hihiwalayan.

"Grabe, kung ako 'yan, hiwalay na agad." Natatawang sabi ni Sam. Jayra laugh too.

"I wish I can. We have a daughter, and our daughter needs him. Besides, I love him pa rin naman. Medyo kumukupas na pero meron pa rin e." She smiled at us. Nilibre ko sila ng ice cream pampabawas stress.

"Sayang kayo ni kuya," biglang sambit ni Jayra. "I mean, bagay kayo e... tapos nagagawa ni kuya lahat ng gusto n'ya noong ikaw 'yung nag-aalaga sa kanya. Ngayon, kahit pagiging doktor hindi n'ya magawa dahil sa asawa n'ya..." hinahayaan lang namin s'yang magsalita.

"I think, Jiro really loves Natasha... imagine, he surrender his dream for her. He can't do that to me." I plastered a sad smile to them. I mean, he can't do that... kahit kailan ay hindi n'ya kayang gawin sa akin ang ganoon. Siguro noon ay hindi ko pansin dahil nabubulag ako sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

"Pero ate, he wants to surrender his dream for you." Kahit ano pang pampalubag loob ang sabihin nila sa akin ay hindi pa rin naman nito mapapagaan ang dinaramdam ko.

"Nah, he can't, I know. But, I know that he needs to pursue his dream. Mahirap kayang mawalan ng pangarap. Mahirap isakripisyo ang pangarap... kaya ayos lang naman sa akin kung uunahin n'ya ang pagiging doktor kaysa sa akin." I smiled at them.

"You two, must have some party and let's drink all together!" Pag-aaya ni Sam.

"Sam, the last time we party, you got yourself into a accident." Natatawang sabi ko.

"Oh, accident that she bumps to Justin and they had a no strings attached thing?" Natatawang sabi ni Jayra. Agad namang namula ang mga pisngi ng bruha.

"You, two!" Turo n'ya sa amin. "Ang epal n'yo! Lagi n'yo 'kong inaaway. Move on na nga ako!" Natawa naman kaming dalawa. E, nung nalaman n'ya nga na may girlfriend si Justin ay agad na nag-usok ang mga tenga ng babaitang ito.

"But, what if kuya likes you pa?" Pagbabago ni Jayra ng topic.

"Like and love is different. We can't always get what we like... love is a different level. We can't always get what we love but at least we had a chance for us to feel them our love." Nakangiting sabi ko.

"So, martyr ka forever?" Biglang tanong ni Sam. I laugh at her.

"Gosh! I'm not martyr. Martyr and being good with everything is different. I'm just good with anything. I just made clear to myself that our pages of love is already ended. Not all love story ends with happy ending. Sometimes, cupid makes it a sad one. Because cupid makes everything chaotic." I told them.

"Grabe, english-an pala dito. Ang alam ko kakain lang tayo ng ice cream ha!" Pagpapatawa ni Sam para gumaan ang mood ng paligid. I mean, I said what is true. If he doesn't love then goodbye. That's it. Me, being with him is done. We can't change the fact that he has a family now and I have priorities I need to face.

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