Insane Inside

Chapter 9: My broken past

Kathleen found herself spooning with Kai when she woke up, and it is almost afternoon, she usually hate intimacy, such as people touching her, hugging...But when she is with Kai, it is different, she felt safe when he hugs her or touch her hands instead of feeling disgusted like she always felt with other people, she doesn't know if he feels the same way or is it all an act that he put on just to get her to trust him so he can use her then ditch her, "Good afternoon little wolf." A familiar, magnetic male voice dragged her back to the reality, she looked up, her eyes meeting his eyes, "why are you in my bed?" She asked, the last thing she remembers is that they were playing games then she think she fell asleep the couch or something like that, "what happened last night?" she kept asking, "you, young lady, was wasted, and I decided to be nice for once and not leave you on the couch all by yourself, so I carried you upstairs then putting you on your bed, but then you kept saying omg Kai don't go, I love you, don't leave me, you are so hot, I can't wait to kiss you and have y—." "Ughh stop mocking me and I did not say that." She cut him off and turned around, her back facing him, she heard him laughing, then he said "fine you didn't say that, but you did try to kiss me and making out with me after I tuck you in." He said while letting her turn back around and face him, she kind of remember that part now, where she was begging him to sleep with her and kissing him and he pushing her away, but she wanna mess around with him a bit, "if I really tried to kiss you and make out with you, why did you push me away instead of kissing me back?" She said and raised an eyebrow waiting for him to answer, she saw his cheeks is getting red, 'wth, is he actually blushing or is this a dream, I made Malachai Parker blushed?!' She thought.

"because.... I—I was—being a decent human being." He said, then he got up super quick and heading to the shower left her alone on the bed, and soon he heard her laughing, and yelled "Miss Mikaelson, will you stop making fun of me now." Which got ignored by her, he rolled her eyes then going into the shower.

The day went by pretty quick, the routine was pretty simple, breakfast, flirting, lunch, taking a walk, flirting, making dinner, flirting, eating dinner, more flirting, there is not a lot to do in the prison world anyway. After dinner, they are sitting on the couch in front of the fire, sharing a blanket, and drinking vodka again, they are both a bit tipsy, "so what was with the abandonment issues that you have? Someone you loved left you before? Except your parents of course." She heard him asking and the smile on her face dropped, and the happiness in her eyes are soon replaced by emptiness, he realized what he did and apologized "sorry I was being insensitive." She looked up as she heard him saying that, "no it is fine, it was a long time ago anyway, it is a long story though you sure you wanna hear it?", "oh we got time trust me, I am all ears." He smiled then staring into her eyes.

Kathleen's POV:

"I kinda lied about never having a boyfriend before, I actually had one, I met him through Hope when I was 13 years old, he was one of her friends, she actually likes socializing with people more than me, so one day she brought him back home in New Orleans and tried to doing some hocus pocus with him, he is also a witch, and after we met, we became good friends, then after a while he told me that he liked me and I liked him as well, so we got together, I used to suffer from depression, and he didn't judge me or anything, he was just there, with me, supporting me like he always did, then I got better, but somehow his situation got worse, he suffered from PTSD since he was young, his parents used to abuse him, physically and mentally, and screwed him up, big time, and people like me, usually brought up the worst side of people we love, so it was the same with him, one day he snapped, started drug abuse, alcohol and all kinds of drugs, and then he broke up with me, I heard that he got really bad, and so I found him and suggested that maybe he should try rehab or something like that, just to get him more stable first then we can deal with the magic part, seeing those things also can makes you go nuts, especially when you are in a bad mental state already, so he took my advice which was a surprise to me, and I had waited for him, then after a while of treatments, he got out but I didn't know that his depression was actually worse than ever, he just got out of drug abuse, but he didn't tell me anything, and I am pretty sure he was disappointed at me. After a few months, I went to England to travel and to getaway from the New Orleans drama for some months, but we stay connected, talked on the phone everyday, and face timing each other, I honestly was thinking that he was recovering, but soon after that, he started to ignore my calls and texts, we talked less and less, I thought he was cheating on me, so I just kicked him out of my life, I was cold to people, I can get over someone I loved in less than a day then just move on with my life like they never existed, so I did it with him which is the biggest mistake I have never made. A few days later, I received a phone call from Hope telling me something happened and I needed to get back to New Orleans as soon as I could, on the plane ride back home, I called my mom and asked what happened since Hope couldn't stop crying after the phone call, and my mom told me that ummm, he committed suicide a few hours ago, so I broke down and almost crash the plane. After I arrived in New Orleans, I went back home and I saw my parents, Hope, and my uncles and aunts were standing next to the fountain downstairs and waiting for me, I saw Hope with her eyes all swollen, then I heard everyone showing their condolences and then I blacked out. On that night after I fell asleep, I had a dream, in the dream, I was standing in front of a bathtub, he was lying inside, and at first, the water was clear, then suddenly, everything changed, the water became into his blood, and he was suddenly bleeding in the bathtub, his wrist sliding outside the bathtub and blood dripping down his arm, he looked pale and he was in pain, I fell on my knees as I was screaming and trying to wake him up, then there was blood coming out on the bathroom floor. After a few days, we went to his funeral, I could feel the giant hole inside my heart, we had been through a lot together, that four years of my life were the best time I have ever had. So this is what last night was about, another part of my broken past." I could felt the tears dropping on the blanket along with Kai's stare, he put his hands on top of my shaking hands and put them on top of his chest, I felt his heart beat again, I looked into his eyes, "I am sorry Kathleen, you didn't deserve any of that, I am sure he was never disappointed in you nor he ever will, you were just a kid back then and you are only 18 right now, you are not supposed to know everything, and trust me, all the best people are broken, and I think he will be proud of you after seeing how far you've came and how strong you are today." I heard him saying so gently, 'Kathleen, remember this, no matter where I am, I will always love you,' This was once appeared in my dream, I never liked expressing my love, in my family, we always say 'always and forever' instead of I love you, I just couldn't say those three words, I hate saying them, I've never said it before, not to anyone. Kai gently dragged me into his arm, wiping the tears off my face, then I leaned my head against his chest, still sobbing a little, I can feel his kiss on my head, he cupped my face then kissed my forehead, "thank you, and for a sociopath, you do know how to comfort people, better than me actually." I said, then I smiled with tears in my eyes, he smiled as well, then said "oh really? That's shocking, never expected to hear it from anyone, and how do you comfort people?" He narrowed his eyes and smirked, " Most of the time, will actually it is all the time, whenever people cry in front of me, I just ask them do they want soda or who do they want me to kill." I said then I laughed cuz I realized how ridiculous it actually sounds, and he laughed as well, "hmmm I hate to say this, but it is true that you are not that good at comforting people I guess, but I actually don't mind if you wanna learn from me." He said while looking at me, I started to giggle a little in his arms, then I heard him asking "do you wanna share the bed with me tonight?" I took another sip of my drink and said "yea sure and I will try not to get drunk again." I laughed and looked at him. "Actually I don't really mind but however I do prefer it if you kiss me sober though." He teased, I turned around facing him and roll my eyes at him then turn back lean my head on his chest again. I heard him laughing. Soon I felt sleepy in his arms and mumbled that I wanna go to sleep, then I felt him put one of his arm under my knees and the other one on my back then carried me upstairs. 'He can be so sweet sometimes, if his parents didn't treat him like that, girls would probably throw themselves at him, I mean he is hot and cute, why wouldn't they chase him,' I thought, but soon I fell asleep in his arms, I've never felt this warm and peaceful, it is like an addiction...