Life After Marriage Book 3

Leaving

AMBER P.O.V. –

“What about this?” I held up a shirt.

“Nah get the blue one.” I went in the closet to get his blue dress shirt.

“Babe these go?” He held up two ties.

I looked over at him on the floor packing his luggage.

He had five different pieces of luggage. We didn’t know if we were going to use them all, but we wanted to be safe.

“You might as well take both.”

He nodded then put them in the luggage. I brought out a handful of clothes. Mainly, jeans, tees, sweat pants. Comfortable stuff..

“All this babe?” He laughed.

“You’re going to be gone for a month. I’m trying to make sure you have everything you need.”

I got on the floor with him and started folding up the clothes. I felt my eyes water and I quickly wiped them.

“Babe. “ He looked at me. “You want me to get better. Us to get better right?”

I shook my head yes.

“Then you know this what we gotto do. You deserve a better husband. My children deserve a better father. So I gotta do the necessary work on me, so I can be that. I don’t want us going through no more shit. I have to change. And not just no band-aid change. Real healing.”

“I know.” I wiped my eyes.

I know I said I wanted to separate from Aug, but seeing that it was real was tearing me up inside. He was going to be gone for a whole month down to New Orleans to work with Tony (Dr. Edwards).

That Nicki Minaj song – I Lied was so real to me right now. Me and August have been together for 8 years. We’ve lived together for six.

Even if his leaving wasn’t permanent or done in a malicious manner, it’s still hard to imagine being away from him for a whole freaking month. But it was something we agreed to do. We both needed to heal our wounds. Not just the wounds of our relationship, but the wounds of his past. And only time apart and therapy would give us the healing we needed.

I’ve found that a relationship is only worth saving, if both parties are willing to do the necessary work to make it better. Not just temporary patch work for a second, then revert back to old ways. But permanent change.

If neither one is willing to do that, the relationship is not worth keeping. Because a relationship were neither party is willing to change is like a stationary bike. The wheels are moving but it’s not going anywhere.

A relationship must be continuously moving forward to make you both better people. One person shouldn’t just be doing all the changing, and the other person just reaping all the benefits. No, both people must grow.

If you are in the same spot in your relationship in year 20, that you were in year ten. That is not a relationship worth keeping. Let it go. Why continue to stay in something you know you’ll always be miserable in? You deserve more out of life. Life is already short, why not live your short life happy. Instead of just staying in something because it’s comfortable?

Me and Aug decided we both were willing to put in the necessary work for us to be better. I loved him very much, and there was no doubt that he loved me. And we were showing each other love now, not just in words, but deeds. Even if that included him packing up and leaving for a minute.