Life After Marriage Book 3

August Alsina Song Cry and this Book

August released a new song today called song cry and it had a trailer that went with it and I just immediately thought of the chapter I wrote called Still Hurts. In the video he's in the rain, in here he's in the rain. And the irony of the whole man crying is just really crazy. I reposted it below no edits except removing the authors notes at the beginning.
The original which I posted on April 15 was in response to a video he posted
Of him crying which he later deleted.

But as you know, from all the comments I've gotten during this series he has always been emotional in this book. It makes me wonder if he's really like this, especially listening to song cry.

But anyway listen to the song. Then You can read and tell me your thoughts.

Amber POV-

I felt a rush of cold air pass over me as the sound of rain, and the smell of spring filled the bedroom.

I opened my eyes to the blinking clock which read 3:00 am. Darkness still hugged the sky and my husband was not next to me.

I looked to my left side toward the balcony and saw Aug on his knees with his head against the balcony bars. Water splattered on his head his head, soaking his hair and clothes.

I sighed. Today was April 15. They day was compacted with every important event in our lives.

My birthday. Oh God I turned 39. One year away from being a senior citizen.

Our fifth year wedding anniversary. This year was probably the hardest we ever had. So glad we made it this far.

But unfortunately for the happiness that 4/15 brought. That solemn date tatted on me and my husband's ring finger, brought more sorrow for him than I could imagine.

It was the birthday of his best-friend and older brother, who was gunned downed on a New Orleans street like an animal. And although they say time heals all wounds, this gash on my baby's heart still bled like it was a fresh wound.

Some years were better than others. It seemed like he rotated. Last year he handled it well. He got through the day without shedding a tear. Although the sadness as we celebrated my birthday and our union, he still wore upon his face.

But this year must've hit him hard. The re-surfacing over so many things that happened in his life.

The major being the bad memories of his step father. He said he never told Mel what happened, but he had a suspicion Mel found out somehow and held his step father at gun point and threatened him. Because August said the abuse stopped one day without warning. And Mel kept saying he wouldn't let anyone hurt him and if someone tried to let him know. Which lead him to believe Mel knew something.

I debated whether to go out there or let him have his moment. I decided it was too cold for him to be out there in the rain uncovered. And got up, grabbed my robe, pregnant and all to see about him.

"Baby come inside." I softly put my hand on his drenched shoulder.

He just continued to breakdown. Most women are hard on their men about showing emotion but I have always allowed Aug to be comfortable with me.

Men shouldn't have to live up to some fake ass standard of manhood. They hurt just like anyone else and to call them soft or be angry because they show a sign of weakness shows what type of woman you are to not allow a man to express a genuine human emotion.